I hop into the open door which automatically closes behind me. Hooray for Japanese taxis I say ! Hooray for getting outta this cruel wind into a cab with warm seats and the lingering smell of tabacco!
I am a little drunk.I am feeling chatty.So obviously is the taxi driver! Its a 10 minute ride.We talk in broken english and broken japanese! we talk about the weather.We talk about his time in Denver and Hawaii.We talk about his two jobs .Toki doki taxi driver and mostly money lender.Hes an aging fella I would guess at 55. I imagine his wife sleeping soundly in her tatami room on her futon. I imagine his grandchildren (who he most definately adores)playing around his slippered feet on the weekend.I imagine his friends some a little older and some a little younger playing ego on a sunday evening.I imagine himas he falls asleep in fromt of the t.V late at night .
He whisks out his mobile phone.I think he is going to show me a picture.The sound of "and so this is Christmas" starts to play in a high pitched tone.We sing together for a while.The we sing "I am dreaming of a white Christmas" this time without the keitai accompanying us.
We get to my house.I hand him the fare.He says Ahhhhhh @00 yen for me 1,500 for my wife.I laugh! I ask him if he has bought his wife a Christmas present."Yes" he says as he grabs a bag and pulls out a little box."Diamond and Sapphire he says as he pulls out a beautiful ring! Its not my style but pretty all the same.I ask him how much.He says 500,000 .Oh its lovely! Its expensive neh?? Oh he says "I am rich" as he pulls out a big zip up bag stuffed with more yen than I have ever seen in one day! Ohhhhhhhhh! I say "Your wife will be very happy! its a beautiful ring!". "Yes" he says "She is 23"................ I get out of the taxi and wish him a happy new year. I imagine him going home to stockings and lace.
Friday, December 17, 2004
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
4 seasons in one day!
I just have to get this off my chest! Some of you may understand and some of you may not.
I am not constant.
I change.
Sometimes I am genki and sometimes I am blue.
Sometimes I am confident and sometimes no.
Sometimes I am stunning and sometimes average.
Sometimes I am entertaining and other times dull.
Sometimes I am clever and others quite dense.Sometimes I am sexy and sometimes a fridge.
Sometimes a love and sometimes a bitch.
Moments i am witty and others quite wierd.
Days I am thoughtful and days I am selfish.
An hour when i am busy and hour when I'm not.
A night when I sleep for way too long than I should and a night where the day creeps up way too fast.
Times when I'm strong and times I am weak.
Months when I'm creative and months with a block.
Weeks where adventurous and weeks when I'm housebound.
And years (at least 30) where i am perfectly me!
I am not constant.
I change.
Sometimes I am genki and sometimes I am blue.
Sometimes I am confident and sometimes no.
Sometimes I am stunning and sometimes average.
Sometimes I am entertaining and other times dull.
Sometimes I am clever and others quite dense.Sometimes I am sexy and sometimes a fridge.
Sometimes a love and sometimes a bitch.
Moments i am witty and others quite wierd.
Days I am thoughtful and days I am selfish.
An hour when i am busy and hour when I'm not.
A night when I sleep for way too long than I should and a night where the day creeps up way too fast.
Times when I'm strong and times I am weak.
Months when I'm creative and months with a block.
Weeks where adventurous and weeks when I'm housebound.
And years (at least 30) where i am perfectly me!
Smart Art!
These pics are great!! Do we permit Pavement (or sidewalk) Art here in Japan???
This guy would make a fortune!
This guy would make a fortune!
I come from the land down under!!!
VEGEMITE................. here I come.I cant stand the stuff actually but hey the ho! There are still many other products on those Australian shelves I am keen to get my fingers on.........
Gnna get my haircut and not pay 20 thousand yen for the privellage,(lets hope I dont come back with orange hair and a mullet.)
Gnna speak to every available individual that will talk to me in English(bearing in mind they may think I am a bit kooky)
Gnna sit in my nephews paddling pool with them and drink chardonnay in the HOT, sunny garden.
Gnna strut my stuff down the christmas sale streets and know that I will be the small size and not the large.
Gnna get drunk and fall over knowing that my family fully expect it and that I will be looked after.
Gnna play charades fully drunk and make a wally out of myself (and know my family fully expect it)
Gnna revel in the fact the my family love me just the way I am (and know my family fully accept it!)
Gnna buy a truck load of Berocca.
Gnna paint silly pictures on canvas with my silly aunt and spill chardonnay on the carpet!
Gnna wake up on Christmas day and KNOW I will have a stocking full of goodies and a tree with a heap of pressies and a table laden with christmas fare and be expected to eat everything!
Gnna drink sparkling wine at 7am and get tipsy by 9 while sharing christmas present opening!
The list goes on! I am so excited! I am the grown adult with the kiddy heart!
Ding Dong merrily on High!!!!!!Aint this waht Christmas is about??? Last year I spent it touring the beaches of Bali with a keen surfer who only wanted to catch the next best wave while I stood and watched! It was okay but not my idea of Christmas,this year it will be magic!
Gnna get my haircut and not pay 20 thousand yen for the privellage,(lets hope I dont come back with orange hair and a mullet.)
Gnna speak to every available individual that will talk to me in English(bearing in mind they may think I am a bit kooky)
Gnna sit in my nephews paddling pool with them and drink chardonnay in the HOT, sunny garden.
Gnna strut my stuff down the christmas sale streets and know that I will be the small size and not the large.
Gnna get drunk and fall over knowing that my family fully expect it and that I will be looked after.
Gnna play charades fully drunk and make a wally out of myself (and know my family fully expect it)
Gnna revel in the fact the my family love me just the way I am (and know my family fully accept it!)
Gnna buy a truck load of Berocca.
Gnna paint silly pictures on canvas with my silly aunt and spill chardonnay on the carpet!
Gnna wake up on Christmas day and KNOW I will have a stocking full of goodies and a tree with a heap of pressies and a table laden with christmas fare and be expected to eat everything!
Gnna drink sparkling wine at 7am and get tipsy by 9 while sharing christmas present opening!
The list goes on! I am so excited! I am the grown adult with the kiddy heart!
Ding Dong merrily on High!!!!!!Aint this waht Christmas is about??? Last year I spent it touring the beaches of Bali with a keen surfer who only wanted to catch the next best wave while I stood and watched! It was okay but not my idea of Christmas,this year it will be magic!
Blog Block No more.........
Oh my! I had blog block.
I have been feeling a tad emotional these last few days and didnt really want to bore you with all my ramblings........but then again.........
Its funny when you start to ponder on what exactly your blog is.I guess its a diary,but a diary that you have invited others to see and so in that vain I guess there are some things you you can blog about and others you CANT.I also came up against the issue of what others may think of me if I ramble on too much or rant about this or rave about that or witter on about "stuff".Perhaps they may find be boring,or twee . Maybe others will find me rather unitellectual or a bad writer.Some may think that I am a cool gal with alot to say . it finally came to me that this is MY blog and I dont give a crap what people think.I will write to my little hearts content and hopefully some of you out there may find it enlightening or interesting or downright amusing.If thats the case....Hoorah!! .............and if not........tough tits!!!!!!!
I have been feeling a tad emotional these last few days and didnt really want to bore you with all my ramblings........but then again.........
Its funny when you start to ponder on what exactly your blog is.I guess its a diary,but a diary that you have invited others to see and so in that vain I guess there are some things you you can blog about and others you CANT.I also came up against the issue of what others may think of me if I ramble on too much or rant about this or rave about that or witter on about "stuff".Perhaps they may find be boring,or twee . Maybe others will find me rather unitellectual or a bad writer.Some may think that I am a cool gal with alot to say . it finally came to me that this is MY blog and I dont give a crap what people think.I will write to my little hearts content and hopefully some of you out there may find it enlightening or interesting or downright amusing.If thats the case....Hoorah!! .............and if not........tough tits!!!!!!!
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
For you the sun will be shining......
ohhhhhhhh...here I go..........grab the sick bucket and hold it there for a while.
My boy is away and I misssssssssssssss him! I hate it when he goes away but also I kinda like it.I miss him in the bed.I miss his big warm hugs! I miss his smile,which always has the same affect on me.........a big smile! I miss that I dont have anyone to do the washing,I miss his bigness(no funny comments please,he is 2 metres tall after all!) I miss the spooning,I miss cooking for him,I miss his stories about the day,I miss his text messages,I miss hearing him coming through the door saying "Todaima",I miss just being with him and the warmth that gives me. I also like the fact that I miss all these things and on wednesday he will be back to spoon me again! Hoorah!,and that I will remember all these wonderful things he is! (there are more but there is only so much a bucket will hold!)
My boy is away and I misssssssssssssss him! I hate it when he goes away but also I kinda like it.I miss him in the bed.I miss his big warm hugs! I miss his smile,which always has the same affect on me.........a big smile! I miss that I dont have anyone to do the washing,I miss his bigness(no funny comments please,he is 2 metres tall after all!) I miss the spooning,I miss cooking for him,I miss his stories about the day,I miss his text messages,I miss hearing him coming through the door saying "Todaima",I miss just being with him and the warmth that gives me. I also like the fact that I miss all these things and on wednesday he will be back to spoon me again! Hoorah!,and that I will remember all these wonderful things he is! (there are more but there is only so much a bucket will hold!)
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Forgiveness
My thoughts today have been on forgiveness.There have been times in my life that I have wanted forgiveness and times when I have needed to give forgiveness. I was pondering on this a little today and came up against a strange feeling.
What is forgiveness? How do we forgive?
I know what the text books say and yes there is a definition in the dictionary.But my question is, when do you know that you have truly forgiven someone or something?
Is forgiveness moving forward without looking at the past at the supposed wrong doing and allowing yourself to "just forget about it?"
If so then I am not the forgiving individual I believed myself to be.
Is forgiveness accepting that you feel wronged ,processing that feeling,communicating that feeling with the supposed "wrong doer" and together building trust again ,hoping that in communicating that you felt a certain wrong doing that you can move forward and trust that they will not hurt you again.
Hmmmmmm.this sounds a little nearer..but not quite there.I found some quotes on it today while pondering the situation and came to this conclusion.
Forgiveness is a state where we allow ourselves and someone else freedom to be exactly who they are at any given moment.To allow any individual freedom to act in any way they choose and not hold any grudge or hold anything over them.Forgiveness in my reality is learning from each other and taking risks.Its a huge leap for some.
For me I have decided to take that leap......watch out world here I go!!!!!!! Slaaaaaaaaassssshhh!!!!
Israel Zangwill
The Past: Our cradle, not our prison; there is danger as well as appeal in its glamour. The past is for inspiration, not imitation, for continuation, not repetition
Doc Childre and Howard Martin, The HeartMath Solution
The incoherence that results from holding on to resentments and unforgiving attitudes keeps you from being aligned with your true self. It can block you from your next level of quality life experience. Metaphorically, it's the curtain standing between the room you're living in now and a new room, much larger and full of beautiful objects. The act of forgiveness removes the curtain. Clearing up your old accounts can free up so much energy that you jump right into a whole new house. Forgiving releases you from the punishment of a self-made prison where you are both the inmate and the jailer.
David McArthur & Bruce McArthur, The Intelligent Heart
Many people are afraid to forgive because they feel they must remember the wrong or they will not learn from it. The opposite is true. Through forgiveness, the wrong is released from its emotional stranglehold on us so that we can learn from it. Through the power and intelligence of the heart, the release of forgiveness brings expanded intelligence to work with the situation more effectively.
What is forgiveness? How do we forgive?
I know what the text books say and yes there is a definition in the dictionary.But my question is, when do you know that you have truly forgiven someone or something?
Is forgiveness moving forward without looking at the past at the supposed wrong doing and allowing yourself to "just forget about it?"
If so then I am not the forgiving individual I believed myself to be.
Is forgiveness accepting that you feel wronged ,processing that feeling,communicating that feeling with the supposed "wrong doer" and together building trust again ,hoping that in communicating that you felt a certain wrong doing that you can move forward and trust that they will not hurt you again.
Hmmmmmm.this sounds a little nearer..but not quite there.I found some quotes on it today while pondering the situation and came to this conclusion.
Forgiveness is a state where we allow ourselves and someone else freedom to be exactly who they are at any given moment.To allow any individual freedom to act in any way they choose and not hold any grudge or hold anything over them.Forgiveness in my reality is learning from each other and taking risks.Its a huge leap for some.
For me I have decided to take that leap......watch out world here I go!!!!!!! Slaaaaaaaaassssshhh!!!!
Israel Zangwill
The Past: Our cradle, not our prison; there is danger as well as appeal in its glamour. The past is for inspiration, not imitation, for continuation, not repetition
Doc Childre and Howard Martin, The HeartMath Solution
The incoherence that results from holding on to resentments and unforgiving attitudes keeps you from being aligned with your true self. It can block you from your next level of quality life experience. Metaphorically, it's the curtain standing between the room you're living in now and a new room, much larger and full of beautiful objects. The act of forgiveness removes the curtain. Clearing up your old accounts can free up so much energy that you jump right into a whole new house. Forgiving releases you from the punishment of a self-made prison where you are both the inmate and the jailer.
David McArthur & Bruce McArthur, The Intelligent Heart
Many people are afraid to forgive because they feel they must remember the wrong or they will not learn from it. The opposite is true. Through forgiveness, the wrong is released from its emotional stranglehold on us so that we can learn from it. Through the power and intelligence of the heart, the release of forgiveness brings expanded intelligence to work with the situation more effectively.
For Mama
Okay Mama!(my mum has been asking me to send her this pic so I thought I would honour you all!)
Here you go!! This is my J-Lo dress!!Worn at my favourite place in Tokyo.The Park Hyatt.(for those not in Tokyo,the place where "Lost in Translation" was filmed and are now serving Sofia coppola rose sparkling wine and leading group tours of all the places the "stars" were filmed in,lets hope not the Pachinko parlour)Anyways back to the dress..................
Yes its sexy ! Yes I plan to head to the biggest Casino in the Southern Hemisphere wearing this babey so that my Aunt and I can relish in free drinks all night! (oooooooops did I really say that??)I will try to keep my boobs in! They have been known to be a little free and easy in this dress ,but honestly ..........like anyone would notice!
I am so glad that my blog is turning into a highly intellectual thought provoking forum........haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Haaaaaaaaaaaa!
Here you go!! This is my J-Lo dress!!Worn at my favourite place in Tokyo.The Park Hyatt.(for those not in Tokyo,the place where "Lost in Translation" was filmed and are now serving Sofia coppola rose sparkling wine and leading group tours of all the places the "stars" were filmed in,lets hope not the Pachinko parlour)Anyways back to the dress..................
Yes its sexy ! Yes I plan to head to the biggest Casino in the Southern Hemisphere wearing this babey so that my Aunt and I can relish in free drinks all night! (oooooooops did I really say that??)I will try to keep my boobs in! They have been known to be a little free and easy in this dress ,but honestly ..........like anyone would notice!
I am so glad that my blog is turning into a highly intellectual thought provoking forum........haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Haaaaaaaaaaaa!
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