tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85457012024-03-20T16:49:39.509+09:00IndigorayzUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger274125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-39040178554910725102011-05-08T10:37:00.002+09:002011-05-08T10:43:56.442+09:00ReturnI was thinking about dates today and trying to work out when I came to oz. I was struggling.Was it 2005? , 2006? The I realised I have a blog! I have just read back a few years and found it thoroughly entertaining.I had forgotton quite a few things and really appreciated that I had documented them. <br />So perhaps its time to start again. I certainly have let alot of water pass under the bridge havent I!?<br /><br />In brief just for now while I get back into the swing of things......<br /><br />I have qualified form Uni.December 2009.<br />I started up my Acupuncture business.Its going really well.<br />I am attempting to navigate Permanant residency here in Australia.<br />Benji Puss is well.<br />I am still living in melbourne and still contemplating leaving,but for now I am doing okay.<br />Winter is coming - Boooooooooo.<br />Im drinking a nice Chai while I write this and am about to have another!<br />Thats all for now.<br />Ther will be more .Unknownnoreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-7527703535650443512009-08-30T20:20:00.003+09:002009-08-30T20:56:57.879+09:00Girl..........Realised I havent blogged for a while...so in bullet points here has been my life in the last few months..........<br /><br />* Girl finishes Uni.....works hard at work and on personal stuff<br />* Girl gets fantabulous grades at Uni and is not sure how.<br />* Girl starts to find a way that life works<br />* Girl says goodbye to love of life.<br />* Girl runs successful workshop<br />* Girls street festival nominated for national award...<br />* Girls street festival doesnt win national award but feels good.<br />* Girl starts Uni....her final semester.Yehaw<br />* Girl gets invitation out of blue.<br />Girl plucks eyebrows.She does this sometimes<br />* Girl goes to Broome/Derby.....Holiday,sun and nice company!<br />* Girl has good time,fun, and feels GOOD!<br />* Girl treated like princess.......yeeeeeeeeh!<br />* Girl is hungover ALOT.<br />* Girl ponders life and universe.She does this sometimes.<br />* Girl gets onto boat and pees in bucket and then uses same bucket to wash corn relish off her face..........not so good!<br />* Girl sees lots of whales and this feels good<br />* Girl likes her time with old friends<br />* Girl comes back to melbourne......no sun,only wind.<br />* Girl eases back into Uni<br />* Girl freaks out that Uni finishes soon...like 3 months<br />* Girl dreams of sun and nice times<br />* Girl goes to stupid american Rah Rah workshop (no offense americanos)<br />* Girl learns something from stupid Rah Rah workshop<br />* Girl is 100% commited to her dreams and desires.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-32426421449623570422009-07-10T19:22:00.002+09:002009-07-10T19:30:31.847+09:00Half way through the year already??!!I looked back on my visions for this year adn realised I have accomplished ALL of them. Well I havent completed the degree yet but a semester my friends, a tinsy winsy semester!<br />I am feeling so proud of myself for getting all my visions visualised! Hoorah! I guess it is true what they say! We are the creators of our world! Bring it on! <br />So this is what I have achieved<br /><br /><em>Good Health.I envisage resolving the headache I have had for the last 5 months</em>- GONE apart from about a few days here and there<br /><br /><em>2. Lots of Bodywork</em>- Have a remedial massage once a week!<br /><br /><strong>3. Non escalation-I dont want to dramatise issues.I dont want to get caught up in the rising tensions of issues.I plan to observe them and not attach myself to drama.If someone wants me to attach myself to thier drama it just aint gonna happen.I am working on supporting and letting go. Myself and others.</strong>Yup, this has been a hard one but have stayed mostly on track with this.Just been reaching inside to find the stillness before I become too attatched or emotional!<br /><br /><em>4. Nurturing self. Quiet time. Time doing nothing. This nothing time often becomes reflection and inspiration time.</em> Oh yes! I made time for me this year!<br /><br /><em>5. A healthy relationship with myself,family and friends and hey possibly even a man.The man part had been put on the back burner for sometime due to Uni and ill health,but it would be very nice to develop a relationship with a man who respects my boundaries, is independent, caring and talented in dealing with me!</em> All of this has been achieved,long lost friends are back and relationships are looking great!<br /><br /><em>6. I will qualify this year as a Dr of Acupuncture.This is very exciting but there is alot to organise in the way of registrations and new homes and I am hoping some good time to take a break and see some long awaiting friends from afar.</em> Wirk in progress!<br /><br /><em>7. Creating positive inner chatter. </em> The first thing I do in the morning is set the scene for my day,I am now always looking for the good and not being dragged down with the negative! Score! <br /><em><br />8.I have a new job!!! I am now a P.A to a succesful Hypnotherapist and business owner of "Simply Natural Therapies".This is a wonderful opportunity for me to further my experience in the field of Alternative therapies.It also means I dont work in hospitality anymore! Yehaw.....something I have been working towards for a while now! Thank you Thank you Thank you!</em> Going Bloody well and learning more than I ever thought possible! Just love it!<br /><br /><em>9. Affluence/Abundance on all levels.</em> It come to me everyday! I always seem to have enough!<br /><br /><em>10.Positive mental attitude about me and life.Sadly life this year has battered me around a little and its eroded away my vitality on a physical and mental level.This needs restoring.</em> Yes,I am astounding myself on how much progress I have made this year! Watch this space...........more to come!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-36615106828188573782009-06-21T17:15:00.002+09:002009-06-21T17:26:10.188+09:00Two Turtle DovesI think I must be getting a bit kooky in my old age.I am obsessed with the turtle dove in my garden.<br />A few months ago aforementioned turtle dove had turtledove wife.Turtle dove wife was murdered by my big red puss by having its head ripped off in a most unceremonious fashion.<br />I have an affinity for Turtle Doves,they are monogamous and mate for life,both male and female take care of the nest and look after the young.They hang out together and keep each other warm.Its the perfect love story in my eyes,well it was til Mrs turtle dove got head ripped to pieces.<br />I have been feeling awful about it.Saddened that MR Turtle Dove was sad and lonely and had no-one to cuddle.<br />Every morning he is there sitting on his perch all on his own. <br /><br />BUT about a week ago he started to get very verbal and chuffed out his chest alot,so I got excited.Me thinks there is another chick in town.........to my glee throughout this week I have watched a glorious love affair unfold between aforementioned MR turtle dove and now soon to be(I dont think hes popped the question,but am pretty sure its coming soon,cos I saw them kissing in the tree)MRS turtle dove who is small and oh so very cute! <br />I am so happy! <br />I am so relieved!<br />I am so wierd!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-68142207372997828592009-05-14T09:16:00.004+09:002009-05-14T09:29:29.438+09:00This mind of mineSitting here pondering while I am supposed to be studying.<br /><br />Im on the downhill slide now.Its so easy now.It just happens,I am not struggling with it anymore.One more semester to go.........its so very exciting and now I am entertaining my future with a little more intention.<br /><br />In november I qualify.I am leaving Melbourne.That much is certain,because I deem it so.<br />I am already working on manifesting what that place looks like,what my work will be and how happy I will be.<br /><br />A heavy cloud has been hanging over me.I am looking at returning to myself again.I have lived a stressful,busy life for almost 4 years now,and its time to take it slower.Remove the unwanted "stuff" and get lighter.<br /><br />I am so grateful to my family for supporting me,but its time to move away from thier life and start creating my own. <br /><br />My life looks different to thiers. I have different values and desires and ways of doing things. <br />Its time to start that.<br /><br />Im pulling pictures of what my future looks like and holding them in my mind.<br /><br />My life in the future will have time for love, time for social, time for creating my dreams and manifesting a positive life.It will have time for others and time for me to restore.<br /><br />Okay back to study..........Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-46777836874743056032009-05-10T19:46:00.001+09:002009-05-10T19:46:46.685+09:00Raise me upRaise me up<br />There’s no victims here,<br />No one to blame,<br />Just a maze of love that got lost in some game,<br />Just move in closer babe , move in.<br />When you gonna let it go?<br />When you gonna bring me home?,<br />When you gonna raise me up again?,<br />Don’t want to hang on the line and feel so bare,<br />Don’t wanna reach out when you’re not even there,<br />Can’t you see I’m waiting here so patiently? <br />But my resolve can’t fight much more than this,<br />When you gonna let it go?<br />When you gonna bring me home?<br />When you gonna raise me up again?<br />Can’t see the sun so bright right now<br />I wanna believe that it’s gonna shine down<br />But when I’m lost like a child,<br />With no hand to hold, I only see grey<br />When you gonna let it go?<br />When you gonna bring me home?<br />When you gonna Raise me up?<br />There no victim here.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-30797236769107647142009-04-11T18:57:00.004+09:002009-04-11T19:20:46.541+09:00When no-one is aorund............<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjG154kAyWNpU-bsfLtZkWC7T27ictknIREC36whGQyzhln4bjjUu5by2gZDFBE1_u4eR15CWHxS13_BQzUJ88LXWYqkuSI1i3Jx9pS5mqFEmVxswZNFm4TupTpq1oByeJ82mxSw/s1600-h/debbies+party+006.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 226px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjG154kAyWNpU-bsfLtZkWC7T27ictknIREC36whGQyzhln4bjjUu5by2gZDFBE1_u4eR15CWHxS13_BQzUJ88LXWYqkuSI1i3Jx9pS5mqFEmVxswZNFm4TupTpq1oByeJ82mxSw/s320/debbies+party+006.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323376362644480818" />I think I was enjoying the moment and busting a move here, not insulting the band as it may appear</a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-nWAQPh5Kf0uqR1iuWraf3HApfRkbicktF9fDMWKVt2txlpvXEL6djEP4aVvmT1I5o7P5dZTae10gqEf9JQB1joCfcLjO9pJfq51kDEew7ehwlcIEC0DhTwDLPt4Zg2wU76sSvg/s1600-h/debbies+party+035.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 226px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj-nWAQPh5Kf0uqR1iuWraf3HApfRkbicktF9fDMWKVt2txlpvXEL6djEP4aVvmT1I5o7P5dZTae10gqEf9JQB1joCfcLjO9pJfq51kDEew7ehwlcIEC0DhTwDLPt4Zg2wU76sSvg/s320/debbies+party+035.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323375678376438722" />I dont even know this lady but who cares in the name of dance.We loved the moment!</a><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgdEn4yf8TRjRz3fyjulVS34Lt2GhcnSFbP0HLsOn7K_FvIj0NGj2klg6evkW-Ncgka31ld4NQji_H2r6gXelAEguiKwBnH_Myde6YtP_V-bKqG08rLakuQzohsJys1oVIz-IG5Q/s1600-h/debbies+party+009.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 226px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhgdEn4yf8TRjRz3fyjulVS34Lt2GhcnSFbP0HLsOn7K_FvIj0NGj2klg6evkW-Ncgka31ld4NQji_H2r6gXelAEguiKwBnH_Myde6YtP_V-bKqG08rLakuQzohsJys1oVIz-IG5Q/s320/debbies+party+009.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323375249980992834" />Diggin the groove!</a><br /><br /><br />The house is quiet.<br />No children.<br />No Family.<br />No rules but my own.<br /><br />Agenda??<br /><br />Dance like no-one is watching.........( well NO-ONE is, perhaps except the cat)<br /><br />I have realised that when it comes to me, the mirror and an empty house I am a sex kitten with an esteem of 1000 supermodels.........(hmmm is that good?) Well you kind of see what Im getting at.<br />Its a wonderful release.<br />The Music pumped loud,the toosh jiggling the smile that cant help but play across my face and the energy that I thought had upped and left years ago returns for a brief while.<br />Its in moments like that I wish I had followed a career in dancing. <br />Youre lost in the music.<br />The movement and the energy take over and nothing else exists.<br /><br />Im sure Im not the only gal who just loves doing this.<br />Its better than a date out with a cute guy.....really........<br />Ive posted a few pics of hilarious me going into the zone at a recent party.<br />Silly Me!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-8871927601352113662009-04-05T14:06:00.002+09:002009-04-05T14:23:34.109+09:00Dreams to come to fruition..........I just looked in my bank account and I have $27. <br />Im a student I guess thats okay,but it does send you into a bit of a funk.<br />So here I am, doing a FREAKING RIDICULOUS nutrition assignment that I have no interest in but have to do..YAWN YAWN YAWN, its such a bore.<br />Student acupuncturists enrolling in the new course next year dont have to do it but me oh my here am I slogging away at this stupid ridiculous wretched assignment that needs referncing from primary sources every other friggin sentence and Ive read articles til they are coming out of my ears and am spending FAR FAR FAR too much time on something that I dont give a toss about.In fact I think I have written more words here bitching about it than I have actually done allllllllllllllllllll day.<br /><br />Ah well, I needed a break. I have been at it since 6am (daylight svings is such a joy when your body lets you sleep in,which mine didnt.....)<br /><br />Anyway I digress so far from what I wanted to write aboutthat I might as well have flown to England.<br /><br />I have $27.<br /><br />This starts me fantasing about when I dont have $27 anymore but when I have a little more. When affluence in a financial sense (I am so abundant in lots of other areas of my life.....)comes a knockin on my door.When student life finishes(although I am not sure I ever really do want to stop studying,but a good long break will do nicely)and I am in the market for a little more earning potential.<br />I am dreaming about fabulous new outfits,shoes,trips,concerts,dinner out and visits to the hairdressers,a carefree book purchase, and a better car that doesnt scare the hell out of me every time I go over 80kms because I think im gonna blow off the road.<br />Im even fantasising about toasters and blenders that I might purchase to make breakfast when I am no longer living under someone elses roof. OOOh and then I start thinking about all the beautiful furniture I would like to adorn my home with and all the lovely bits and pieces I will buy to make MY home MY home.<br />Ahhhhhhh........its so near!<br />So while I sit here friggin about with Lysine and referencing like a bunny rabbit on heat there are those sweet moments of pure indulgence and materialism.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-21102697027720751712009-03-28T06:46:00.003+09:002009-03-28T07:00:50.890+09:00SurrenderThe last post was a bit morbid so I wanted to update.<br /><br />I sleep with 2 angels next to my bed. One rose quartz the other Amythest. They are there to remind me that I am always being backed up.There is always something bigger than me running the show.<br />In the morning when I remember, I open up a dialogue in my head with the guys upstairs.I ask for certain things and I hope they listen.<br />Its not always about asking and recieving though.There are times when I just listen.<br /><br />I was reminded after a conversation with a good friend of mine a few days ago that in times of stress ( of which I have to admit are pretty constant for me due to the fact that I have a lot going on in my life , say like 12 assignments, a job, a full time degree and a health condition that always puts me in a state of back footedness)there is absolutely NOTHING to be done.Its at times like these that NON ACTION should be chosen over action and surrender adopted over control. <br /><br />The universe has a plan. Its so much more loving and intelligent than I.If i just take my hands off the steering wheel and stop controlling I might allow it to see where its taking me.I just have to stop steering fro a while. <br /><br />As my friend said, and I agree, how can we hear the beautiful orchestra of the angels when we are constantly talking over it.<br /><br />So I am in a state of surrender.Being an observer rather than a doer and taking a break from MAKING everything okay.<br /><br />I am really happy to be reminded of this lesson and it releases me from alot of what goes whirling around in my head.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-77597610442250566772009-03-25T10:49:00.003+09:002009-03-25T10:59:49.930+09:00BuggerI called in sick today.<br />I just couldnt face the day.My tummy hurts, my heart hurts and I feel flat.<br />Im in a tricky situation.<br />I havent learnt the skills to this date on how to deal with aforementioned tricky situation.<br />I think I have made a mistake,but thats done and nothing can change that,but,its how I move forward that is now the question.........<br />I have attempted to correct the mistake, but the person i need to correct it with wont let me speak to them.<br />In the past I would usually deal with a situation like this by just letting go. <br />Chasing after the problem might make it worse.<br />I believe this thing is too valuable to let go of.<br />Reactions are funny things.I told myself years ago that reacting to situations was a heinous crime.Now I find myself doing exactly that. I am human. To err is human,but how to correct your mistake is like trying to be superhuman.<br />I think I might just go to bed and hug my wheatbag for a while longer. <br />Time seems to be passing so slowly though...........Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-18028693236452818792009-03-05T07:39:00.002+09:002009-03-05T07:53:49.491+09:00Festival and other things............I organised a street Festival.<br />It was a great event.SO many people came.Easily a couple of thousand.Alot of people came up to me congratulating me on my success.That part was great. What was also great was looking at the car park and seeing it filled with colour and excitement and alot of people enjoying themselves.I helped to create that.Something I can look back on and be very proud of.<br /><br />The flip side of the event was the abuse that I recieved from people about the car park being closed from 3pm. One woman swore at me. Some traders were extremely pissed off,even though they had been informed several times. They couldnt seem to look past the fact that although it may be a tad quiet for an hour or two,that after that there would be a MASSIVE influx of people and that this would be HUGE for thier business. I recieved alot of negativity at the start.This didnt help my esteem, but I managed to push that away. I have now only heard good things from the traders. Some cafes sold out of everything they had...... The exposure the festival created to our community of local shops wont just be an on the night thing.It will continue for some time I think. <br /><br />Anyway I was just the coordinator/facilitator for the event.What people decide after this is thier decision. <br /><br />The council were impressed and offered me a bench mark as to how succeful it was,which was good,because I have never done anything like this before and had no idea of what was a good turn out.Apparently it was good! I am happy.<br /><br />I am experiencing some post fetival blues at the mo.The adrenaline has subsided and its back to the norm. <br /><br />On a more exciting note but not detailed.........there is a fella in the works.He is wonderful.More about that when the time is right!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-87983964002887063002009-02-06T16:10:00.002+09:002009-02-06T16:25:42.935+09:00Deep EndAs some of you may know I have just started a new job. <br />Its so perfect for me. <br />I am working in a Natural therapies environment as P.A to the owner. There is a shop and 2 clinics.<br />She is a clinical Hypnotherapist, who a few years ago decided to take it one step further and open a shop and then a clinic.<br />The business has grown faster than she could implement policies and procedures,so its a bit 'higgedly Piggedly' and she needs help. <br /><br />I started just before Christmas and did 2 days training before becoming acting Clinic Manager and class coordinator while the wonderful woman who usually does this job was away on a much needed break.<br /><br />My boss ( an ideas lady) mentions to me that we are doing a Street Fetival at the end of February.Its a communty Health and Happiness festival.She gives me a few things to do.............before I know it I am now coordinating a massive event with an expected turn out of 1000 people plus.<br /><br />Ive organised sports clubs and dance groups and spinning wheel prizes,market stalls,first aid,pamphlets .........the list goes on.<br /><br />Ive never done anything like this before. Its big.I am talking to a lot of people. Its sort of my baby.<br /><br />At first I took it on with gusto.I still have gusto dont get me wrong but then suddenly it has grown to a size where its really quite major.Im proud of myself for finding out that I can do things like this.I am learning sooooooooooo much, but suddenly it seems so big that today I got quite scared. <br /><br />I am responsible. <br /><br />Watch this space.<br />27th Feb.<br />Think of me!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-55548196516905807182009-01-27T18:58:00.005+09:002009-01-27T19:43:47.820+09:00Im not Keen, but certainly interested<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKO9t9LiuQWiEd885b4LXlnYDPEPiuUY-PrrfUD3z1Om0XZL2WdlMWZ5fZHvWaMC8gE4cZwj79bL69px8iMojCUGmpwIIx191aXJVeb3OsSyqnCBy0sEb5hfG2w8e1laEyodPwCw/s1600-h/Spider_main_organs_labelled.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 236px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKO9t9LiuQWiEd885b4LXlnYDPEPiuUY-PrrfUD3z1Om0XZL2WdlMWZ5fZHvWaMC8gE4cZwj79bL69px8iMojCUGmpwIIx191aXJVeb3OsSyqnCBy0sEb5hfG2w8e1laEyodPwCw/s320/Spider_main_organs_labelled.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5295910869870869314" /></a><br />(Blue) Nervous system<br />(Green) Digestive & excretory system<br />(Red) Circulatory system <br />(orange) Respiratory system <br />(Yellow) Reproductive system <br /><br />1 Fang (chelicera) <br />2 Venom gland <br />3 Brain <br />4 Pumping stomach <br />5 Forward aorta branch <br />6 Digestive cecum <br />7 Heart <br />8 Midgut <br />9 Malphigian tubules <br />10 Cloacal chamber<br />11 Rear aorta <br />12 Spinneret<br />13 Silk gland<br />14 Trachea <br />15 Ovary (female) <br />16 Book lung <br />17 Nerve cord <br />18 Legs <br />19 Pedipalp<br /><br />Today seemed to be a day where I just kept bumping into Spiders. I admit;it certainly isn't a favourite past time of mine but I couldn't help thinking there was some meaning behind it all. <br /><br />Let me just clarify here. I woke up . There was a spider on my ceiling. Not too big.Easily manageable. I got to work and went to make a cuppa. Spider on the tap. Small. Kind of cute and certainly manageable. Okay , so a switch goes off in my head. Hmmm 2nd spider of the day. Interesting, but forgettable.<br /><br />I drive to other office at work and pull over randomly behind a parked car to take off my thongs (shoes for those of you who are not living in Australia) which are slipping on the clutch while I drive. There dangling like a huge moster/ beauty/fine specimen of its type......whatever you would like to think of these 8 legged creatures ; is the biggest huntsman I have ever seen. Just hanging out, dangling from the tow port on the back of the car that I just happen to randomly pull in behind.<strong>NOT FORGETTABLE</strong>.<br /><br />Brain is definitely now aware that spiders are the theme of the day.I make a perfunctionary vague gaze around my own car (insides of car , as there is no escaping if one decides to land on my lap or lollop onto my head while a swinging from its silky rope from my rear view mirror while I am in the act of driving at 100kms an hour, but also vague because one is not really wanting to look too hard just in case the very thought of thinking it will make it suddenly appear in front of me)<br /><br />Anyway 3 sightings in a short space of time. Gets me thinking. Whats the symbolism. I get home and take a look and I find this lovely picture. Well, that one up there.<br />fascinating truly fascinating. Now I truly understand why I am wary of these creatures.Wouldn't you be if you realised its Trachea was in its arse????<br /><br />And Malphigian tubules.............well to quote Wikipedia<br /><br /><blockquote><em>Most spiders convert nitrogenous waste products into uric acid, which can be excreted as a dry material. Malphigian tubules ("little tubes") extract these wastes from the blood in the hemocoel and dump them into the cloacal chamber, from which they are expelled through the anus.[6] Production of uric acid and its removal via Malphigian tubules are a water-conserving feature that has evolved independently in several arthropod lineages that can live far away from water</em></blockquote><br /><br />And then theres the Pedipalps..................well I never................<br />those pincery thingy-me-bobs have a proper name...........Fascinating truly fascinating.<br /><br />So I feel good. I got to know something that I disliked a little better today. <br /><br />I got to know something that scares me, and maybe wont scare me so much the next time......... if I can rationalise that its an 8 legged creature with Pedipalps, ovaries and Malphigian Tubules............I won't hold my breathe but it was still fascinating!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com39tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-5015621085411952282009-01-07T08:45:00.010+09:002009-01-07T09:17:40.377+09:00The yearIts not a resolution.<br />I dont do resolutions! <br />I have decided to rename them VISIONS.<br />My visions for the upcoming year <br /><br />1. Good Health.I envisage resolving the headache I have had for the last 5 months.<br /><br />2. Lots of Bodywork-I am severly lacking in good therapeutic touch.<br /><br />3. Non escalation-I dont want to dramatise issues.I dont want to get caught up in the rising tensions of issues.I plan to observe them and not attach myself to drama.If someone wants me to attach myself to thier drama it just aint gonna happen.I am working on supporting and letting go. Myself and others.<br /><br />4. Nurturing self. Quiet time. Time doing nothing. This nothing time often becomes reflection and inspiration time.<br /><br />5. A healthy relationship with myself,family and friends and hey possibly even a man.The man part had been put on the back burner for sometime due to Uni and ill health,but it would be very nice to develop a relationship with a man who respects my boundaries, is independent, caring and talented in dealing with me!<br /><br />6. I will qualify this year as a Dr of Acupuncture.This is very exciting but there is alot to organise in the way of registrations and new homes and I am hoping some good time to take a break and see some long awaiting friends from afar.<br /><br />7. Creating positive inner chatter. <br /><br />8.I have a new job!!! I am now a P.A to a succesful Hypnotherapist and business owner of "Simply Natural Therapies".This is a wonderful opportunity for me to further my experience in the field of Alternative therapies.It also means I dont work in hospitality anymore! Yehaw.....something I have been working towards for a while now! Thank you Thank you Thank you!<br /><br />9. Affluence/Abundance on all levels.<br /><br />10.Positive mental attitude about me and life.Sadly life this year has battered me around a little and its eroded away my vitality on a physical and mental level.This needs restoring.<br /><br />Okay thats enough to be going on with. I have fixed these things in my mind and have put them out there. This is going to be a big year for me. Lots of endings and some bloody big beginnings!<br />Happy Happy New Year!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-55674454383328527432008-10-08T12:23:00.004+09:002008-10-08T12:36:18.414+09:00UpdateWARNING- a cathartic post ahead.<br /><br />My head is still not good.Some may say its always been a little odd anyways.<br /><br />Its been 10 weeks.<br /> <br />I hate taking the medications(many) but I am petrified of coming off them.Nobody is telling me to mind you.<br />I feel like I have lost a part of myself to this thing. It takes over everything. <br />I am waiting for an epiphany,an understanding of why I have this affliction.I dont want to be a victim to it.As of yet the only thing I can come up with is that I need to slow down.<br />I have.<br />Its still here.<br />So I keep searching for the key that will unlock the door to understanding.<br /><br />I understand the pathophysiology of this thing.I understand physically what is going on but to me there is more to this thing.A lesson not yet learnt and when I do it will disappear as quickly as it came.<br />Another thoery I am playing with right now is that the pain is literally breath taking.<br />Perhaps if I can release something that I have pushed down deep inside ,a painful experience or event that the pain will go.What in me or my past (the same thing in my mind) has been so painful that I have manifested this.<br />Im working on this.<br />I have alot of help. <br />Im trying EVERYTHING. <br />I cant live like this,but I am.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-68946462578654484232008-09-13T09:37:00.003+09:002008-09-13T09:50:57.620+09:00My Head.........Okay its really not great news..........<br />I have been ill.REALLY ill.Its been going on now for six weeks.The good news Ill be okay.The bad news.....we dont know if or even when I will get better........... Hmmmm....positive bunny arent I? but then to be honest I have been through hell.<br /><br />The short of it is that I have a Neuralgia in my face and head. Migrainous or trigeminal or glossopharangeal...........we are not sure.What I am sure of is the excruciating debilitating pain that I have been in.Its been likened to giving birth several times a day but the pain is in your head.I am now no longer afraid of labour.<br />I have been to see dentists,doctors and now specialists.I am currently on epilepsy medications to stabilise the nerve membranes in my head and this has helped tremendously.I am now no longer struck down suddenly with excruciating stabbing pain and reduced to a flood of tears (not through fear through pain)Instead now I get good days and bad days where my head hurts worse than others.Im not great to be around these days.<br />I have been allowed to reduce my college load and I am trying to rest and get well.<br />I have had heaps of support from friends and family which has been a wonderful reminder that no man is an island and I couldnt have done any of this without them.I would have probably topped myself from the pain. <br />Im trying to gather lessons from this and certainly am not stuck in poor me mode or even why me mode,I think I am now in the mode where I have to try and make sense of it all surrender to it and pray that it remisses.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-24593193015286776982008-07-22T10:55:00.002+09:002008-07-22T11:03:02.186+09:00Bird in a a bagIn the morning he brought me mouse.<br />In the afternoon he brought me magpie .<br />In the evening he brought me a pink canary in a plastic bag....<br />Why oh why I didnt take a picture I do not know but how on earth did my sweet little boy find a pink canary in a ziplock bag???<br />I can only imagine that some unsuspecting individual experienced the passing of thier dear sweet bird and put it on the front step to bury in the garden only to return and find there had been a body snatching incident.<br />I know for fact that he couldnt have pilfered it from a bin as all our bins out here are tall wheely bins with lids,so unless benji has developed the fine art of lifting lids it didnt happen that way.<br />I guess I should have posted some notes around the neighbourhood informing of dear sweet pink canary in ziplock bag found in the jaws of dear sweet ginger puss but I was too busy laughing ............Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-12559728964832236732008-07-19T12:07:00.002+09:002008-07-19T12:24:12.831+09:00ConsipitationNo,Its not a spelling mistake but a rather endearing way that my radical, highly regarded Chinese professor refers to constipation.I am well into my cinics at this stage in the game.<br />This entails running the acupuncture clinic as a group of students and seeing clients from the "outside". Its all very exciting.<br />For every client we see we have to take a detailed case study and then consult with our chinese professor. He is an interesting man.He has over 40 years experience in the field and as well as extensive research , a clinic he runs in Collins street (a highly priced business district),and a passion for stamp collecting,he finds the time to teach in Victoria University and with us.He cured himself of a stroke with acupuncture and still seems to chuff rather alot of cigarettes,but he knows his stuff.<br />When he inserts a needle the air in the room seems to stop.I find myself holding my breath and standing there waiting....not quite sure what im waitng for or even if I am ,perhaps I am just in awe. He can see and feel qi like its a solid entity and can tell when its shifted and when something is better.He can cure a muscle ache with one needle in 5 minutes.He has cured chronic shoulder problems with a needle in the leg manipulated for 10 minutes.Hes cured cancer.He pays no heed to our rather conservative ways of treating and will happily needle deeply into organs...something I still quite havent got my head round and makes me feel somewhat sick,but it works,he gets results,and isnt that what people want when they are sick??<br />Ive decided not to do an internship in china.Purely financial.If I had the cash I would but I dont and so I wont and thats okay,but when I have Dr Zhou why the hell do I need too???Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-14289594970602486172008-06-26T08:17:00.002+09:002008-06-26T08:27:08.593+09:00It cant be......Holy craperoooooooo............I just looked at my blog and realised it had been 6 months since my last post.Bless me father for I have sinned. <br /> Where did the time go??? I feel like I have entered Dr whos tardis and now here I am thinking to myself what happened while I was flip flopping around up here in my head,which is where I spend most of my time these days.<br /> To top it all off I find out Miss Sins love has had TB and Arumanda is in gay pareeh.these are only 2 of the people that I like to watch as they progres along in life..........Im not sure that anyone is even reading this...........you may all think I have gone, disappeared into magical head land never to return from the ocean of acupuncture points and disease processes.<br />No I am here.......<br />Just about<br />Just finished a round of very intense exams and now am about to head into winter school.I have finally made it into clinics and am practising on the general public.I am almost there ! Another year and you can call me Dr.<br />I have 2 jobs that nearly make up full time hours and a full time degree.Oh its hard but I just do it and find very little time for anything else in my life! Nothing of import to impart.........unless of course I find a creative way of imparting all of this knowledge that I am accumulating up here in my ever expanding brain.....<br /> Let me think on that one.<br />For the most part I am well and happy but self absorbed,so apologies........I will try harder.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-57118770025379229752007-12-22T10:40:00.000+09:002007-12-22T10:47:12.160+09:00Same same but different.........This happened last year..........something in the stars?........a new year clean out? ..........or just coincidence???<br />I quit the job I have been in for 2 years.I found another one the same day! Hooray! A very chilled place with great people and much more my thing!At long last I am appreciated.It was a healthy decision.A similar thing happened last year where I lost my job around the same time.Odd.<br />Benji puss is sick.He has skin cancer on his nose.Its treatable,but hes in discomfort and thats just no fun for the little guy...its going to cost me a fortune.Same thing happened at the same time last year.......he got sick and cost me a fortune?!<br />What is going on???Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-5422743017893755892007-12-21T10:59:00.000+09:002007-12-21T11:24:36.511+09:00Dating gamesSo Im dating.<br />After seattle boy I decided it was time to dust off the cobwebs and get myself out there and noticed.<br />Study can lessen a little but this girl needs to go get some loving.<br />Ive never really "Dated" before.Ive always just met someone hooked up and so the story goes and here I am several long term relationships later.........nothing wrong with that.Its just the way it goes.Serial monogamist.But things are different now.I want to do some window shopping and try on a few different outfits before I make a purchase.<br />So there was singles party boy- Kiwi,very keen,wanted to monoploise me,bombarded me with texts and affirmations of how cool I was.Not interested.<br />The there was British boy- nice guy,wanted to talk about the Uk alot.I left there a long time and all the talk of it made me feel terribly depressed.Again texts and affirmations of desire.Not interested<br />Next was Media boy-He was cute.We talked alot about travelling,told me that if I saw any of his friends not to mention we met online.......wierd.Its such a viable way of meeting people these days.Again not interested.Told him so and I dont think he was that into me either so all cool.<br />Then we had psycho boy- Child psycologist,eyes like a vampire,looked nothing like his pic and scared the hell out of me.i think it was when his eyes followed the only people with kids out of the restaurant that I thought NO youre just ot right.The mention of a little walk after dinner also freaked me out.........would I like to see him again???? No.No messing just a plain straight no.He can handle it no freudian analysis there.<br />Next up is who I call second chance boy- Went on a date .He analysed the hell out of me and incorrectly.Found myself just wanting to go home and hide under the duvet.Emailed him the next day to say sorry no chemistry,to which he replied that he really thought I shoudl give him a second chance.........hmmmmmmm.........No.another reply....thats a shame please reconsider?I think to myself that this guy is brave so accept another date.<br />Now for the best one- Sydney boy-told him in no uncertain terms that hes in sydney and Im in melbourne.No harm talking he responds.Okay.2 months later after alot of talking and instant messaging we meet.Have a great weekend.Lots of chemistry,lots of fun.I like him.He lives in Sydney.Go figure.He is also still in love with ex girlfriend.Not willing to go there.Accuses me of falling in love with him and not to go there.....okay buddy unstick the tickets.I like you but it was just a weekend.Would do it again but feel slightly cheated.<br />Oh and here comes second chance boy again-this date was alot more relaxed,we had fun,not sue about the chemistry,but we can be friends and you can never have enough of those.........he wants to take me out to a fabulous italian ...okay accept date 3...which is to be continued.<br />And so the games continue...........and Im still dating..........Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-72458621133761455782007-12-03T07:33:00.000+09:002007-12-03T07:49:25.746+09:00remember me?<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1LAPGl-olCH3sZ4UmT9sNRFXdRmu0hN25WPMpvCh-ZzF6hBQMSd8yc67SRhiVFJIWsge3x0kNJlk5TgzTa9H3ecjaLxIxDrEOqBdnNnt_PzfCZ6Z9tOB_00Z5CQ9r-Ur3TiaswA/s1600-r/dec07+012.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhRnPE7NSeGOgtNqnvNPfYI1h9Q-P3A4L9UnNz0w60j_sWeJLnO89tJ4yiwsNqo997rGRtfe67jPcBI2ecuVPew8EqBHcy8JNDNiEIpBTWcEYuWA9IV7Vk6AVNegEcAqhVkjE0JBQ/s320/dec07+012.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5139511414454776162" /></a><br /><br /><br />Hey there everyone!<br /><br /> <br />Remember me!?<br />You have a few guesses to guess where Ive been but most of you will know that it has been that time of year where head goes down, bum goes up and the world ceases to exist unless you can find it in a text book or Uni notes.........<br />Its over.......I have 3 glorious months of no Uni and time to get a life! <br />Exams were a different experience for me this semester...I would still use adjectives such as "stressful" "painful" and "draining" but I seem to have reached a stage where instead of trying to get High Distinctions or distinctions,I am just content to pass.The balance needs to be struck and the hair needs to stay on my head! Up until now it has..........touch wood and 500 hail marys.........Im still pretty sure Ive aged 10 years in the last month but nothing that a few good sleeps wont sort out and some TLC.......<br />So i have some things to blog.alot of things! Lovelife stories,work stories,made up stories..........and then theres Christmas.That kind of crept on me! Finished my exams and i recieved a Christmas card......oh,Christmas,yes! thats happening! <br />so keep watching folks and hopefully I can catch you up on all my news!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-45320991720996756242007-10-06T22:55:00.000+09:002007-10-06T23:08:45.844+09:00RemainsSo.........Its been a wierd couple of months.Extreme highs followed by what I first percieved to be an extreme low! You know the kind.Hard to get out of bed,feel like a sack of potatoes,no one loves me,end of the garden ,worm eating and general beating up on oneself.<br />STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP! <br /><br />Reality check..........<br />1. I made myself vulnerable.What this really means is I have been open and honest with my feelings and who I am! I love that!<br /><br />2.I am lonely.What this really means is that I am so focused on my dreams and goals that I havent made time for anything else in my life......I can work on that!<br /><br />3.I am not worthy.eh hem.I ended it because I believed I am worth more than what I was recieveing and the result was the revealtion that I was right!<br /><br />4.I miss intimacy-kind of the same as the above and again something I am working on.Its not a bad thing to miss intimacy but I can seek it in all kinds of ways.Self,friends,pets and spirit.<br /><br />5.I will never find what I am looking for.Yes I will.I just need to be patient.It is my right to be happy and fufilled.<br /><br />So those are a few things I wrangled with this week.I have worked through them all and come out on top.I am moving forward positively.I am radiant even.<br />This girl will not be beat,or pulled down by lifes little upsets! She will always work through them and seek the positive and then seek to action them.<br />It all feel rather good!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-88993648496491798232007-10-01T21:51:00.000+09:002007-10-01T22:00:04.984+09:00GOODBYESThe dream,and it seems it was just a dream,is dashed.I think I had a lucky escape.<br /> <br /><br /><br /><br /> "Men like<br />women who don't color their hair, don't wear lots of<br />make up and who are comfortable with what God gave<br />them. This is who I am going to marry. Its what all<br />men truly seek in a woman. <br /><br />The world is not as it once was. Women have forgotten<br />how to be women. They have forgotten how to be able to<br />raise a family and run a house. They no longer know<br />how to iron a simple shirt, to sew a ripped hem, or<br />bake a cake on Sunday afternoon. They no longer know<br />how to hang up laundry on a washing line... the simple<br />thing in life that are so over looked, yet so<br />important. To listen to a husband after a long days<br />work and run him a bath and bring him a cup of tea or<br />a glass of wine before dinner." <br /><br />I have read this many times.I am still reeling at the fact that I didnt pick any of this up.<br />I am also truly disappointed that I now have to go back to the drawing board and start the search again........hell.........I do pick them.......but what a lucky escape.Is this truly what a man wants????Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8545701.post-23733003637417035482007-09-25T17:50:00.000+09:002007-09-25T18:00:23.323+09:00He rose again!!!And after the 3rd day he rose again! <br /> Only after a few days of disposing of the old and rather dearly departed bunny rabbit,(actually its still sitting in my draw while I decide exactly HOW TO dispose of it in a house where I live with my aunt,uncle and 2 kids........suggestions kindly welcome)I came home today to find a parcel on my bed!I love suprises! Especially parcel suprises but not in my wildest dreams did I anticipate that a VERY VERY KIND benefactor would take pity on my loss and understand the financial strife of a student and send me a BRAND NEW shiny rabbit!!!!!!!!It buzzes and lights and twirls and even has a cute bunny rabbit face!LUCKY LUCKY ME!!!!Give it and me some more time and it might even have other tricks up its sleeve!..........and so my dearest readers,I thank you for your sympathy at what was a very sad time,but as fickle as I am, old has been replaced with new and I am no longer grieving but grooving!<br />THANK YOU KIND BENEFACTORUnknownnoreply@blogger.com1