Merry Christmas!

Today is my last day of work before we drive off to the coast about 7 hours from Melbourne to sun, sea, sand and relaxation! Hoorah! We are off to a place called Merimbula! Apparently very beautiful and just the ticket for winding down! Its been crazy for me and I havent stopped since my exams ,thrown into a frenzy of work(which is great)and preparing for Christmas,but the bags are packed,the cat box is ready and i am raring to go!
Its been an amazing year .So many challenges and changes.They have all been wonderful and certainly I feel a better individual because of them.Although I have less hair,its all a lesson in how to adapt and change the way I approach life.That is never a bad thing.I recieved my exam results and did very well.The usual mix of distinctions,High dstinctions and credits.Its good.Perhaps though it is time to work out how to approach my studies with less intensity and more savvy.I feel tired and running on debt of energy.I know that with a break it will all come good.heading down to see the J-ster in the new year and so with 3 weeks of chill time to look forward to I can only hope that I will back to my more bouncy self in no time!
I am looking forward to the new Year.I feel better changes ahead and a feeling of allowing things to just "be" rather than trying to shape them too much .Its time to let go and trust a little more that things will turn out for the best.
As for you guys???????? I hope the New Year brings much peace ,understanding and happiness.Your health abundant and your purse strings never tight!
Its over and out from me for a while but I shall be back!
Merry christmas and Happy New year!!!!!!!

Its raining ,its pouring ,the old man is snoring!

Fuck. Yesterday was supposed to be a day of rest! You know,try and get my hair to grow back cos as the chemist said,be prepared,more could fall out..........Okay so I might need a wig for christmas and anyways I had processed that kind of......But then I lost my job in the city.........I have never been let go of anywhere before.........never.So my pride feels a bit dented.My stress levels up a dash more.I have fees to pay I have to save money.Alot of money.Phew I think,thank god for my little financial plan........I can fall back on that a bit next year to pay fro my fees.I have put 20 tousand dollars in that over the last 3 years,a partial surrender will get me that cash........NOPE........a very very very small return will pay for dit,just enought o pay back the cash I owe my uncle......Fark,stress levels rising.......I decide to go to the solarium to get a bit of Vitamin D for my hair.......I have a massive run in witht he lady at the couter...the machine doesnt work properly and I keep getting up to tell her and she thinks its me.......I cant deal with this.I tell her she has a bad attitude and leave..........Stress levels rising...........alright go home put windows on shuffle qand lie down.......ahhhhhhhh thats better........is there something in the stars today??? Is mars and saturn playing funny buggers with my life? Can I let all this go? Can I look at the positive side??
I call my boss up the road(my second job) tell him whats happened.....can he help..Yes he can ......lots of work! Hoorah~!okay stress levels decreasing.Tell my fam about the finances ...can they help?? Yes if it comes to it they will lend me whatever I need to make up if I am short..........ah stress levels decreasing........goooooood!
So I am sitting here thinking to myself ,this has happened for a reason.I always analyse moment like this and think bad things happen which initiae change.That change is usually always for the better.......so I am meditating on that thought for a while and knowing that although it was and is stressful at the moment there is something really good coming.....a pathway to another destination,which I havent quite found yet.The changes I couldnt make were made for me.........so I can see that pathway when it comes along.I feel a bit better.