Hoorah ! I am back to Uni ! I likey! I now have a goal and a purpose again! I loved being able to restore all my energy after many stressful exams and experiences .I loved resting and waking in the morning with not much to do! I loved sleeping in!
First 2 days were great! But yesterday went a bit awry! Rushing to the bus stop found me flat on my face as foot hit kerb and body went reeling...........I thought i was going to right myself but it didnt happen and I went on going ! I underestimated the damamge as I got right back up again with heavy book,drink,lunch filled rucksack to dash to my bus.........later that afternoon I started to experience tight nervey pain down my right arm,left leg felt crampy.
Finished lesson ,hopped or should I say hobbled onto the bus and went straight to work.By 10 pm I was feeling seriously damaged and crippled.Turning my head to the left was not only painful but gave me painful nerve sensatons down my left arm............hmmmmmmmm......I have developed a limp too on my right side.........where in my life did I become so vulnerable???? Falling has never caused this before............Bugger 33 this year.Maybe thats why!
So I get home after a veeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy long day and walk into my bedroom.I am in pain,I wanna sleep,but whats that smell!? it smells rank...... I open the windows and turn on the fan and turn around to see a humungous rat lying on my floor......it has its lower jaw missing........I am guessing its been eaten......is that the tastiest part?????
I dont like spiders but I will catch them if I have to...but a rat?? A rank smelling rotting rat??? I do it.I have to.Its not good.I wrap it in lots of paper and plastic so I cant feel it at all! Where did this come from?? This utter repulsion never experienced.......oh yes ! Thats right I remember I am 33 in 3 weeks time .I am going soft.....Its gotta go! It stinks and I dont wanna sleep with a mauled rat in my room.Benji is so happy wth himself and loudly Miows beside me as if to say "Look Mama ! Look wHat I got you!"
THANKS DARL..........
I go to bed with painkillers and a sore arm and leg.
I remember I said this year would be different! SLow down girl and take it easy! Praise the gift of love and Rat and be careful with yourself!
Its good to be back!
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Back to School
Next monday sees me returning back to School,which for the most part I am desperate to return to.I have a lot of adjusting to do as last semester saw me overworked,overstressed and over achieving..........so I have to try and contain the study to certain times and give myself a care free day off,otherwise I can see that I will have no hair left.(I had a stressful week last week and it started to come out again,but only a little)Anyways ,moving on from my ailments of which sometimes are too many ,and oh so dull.............
So next semester is the start of getting a little more intensive on the Chinese Subject side rather than the Western Medicine side,so I am hoping that it will be alot more motivating for me.That is not to say that I havent found the Western Med subjects fascinating,more the chemistry side of things! Hoorah no more!
I have just purchased the biggest book on Clinincal medicine and opened it up! Its pretty impressive.Pathology is impressive ,but its also scary! Hmmmmmm...perhaps I should look at all these big unknown words as exciting! The only problem is that the only chance I will ever get to use them is when talking to a doctor or others interested in clinical meds.........its not like you can just drop it into a conversation or display your talent on a wall! ..........hmpf.
BUT BUT BUT..........i will start needling next semester and performing moxabustion and dermal hammering and cupping and bleeding and,and ,and!
So I will keep you posted on all of that!
I am just posting a link Acupuncture. Whats good for you! for you guys to watch.......the link is at the top and not easy to see but the video is quite interesting although basic,but ,anything to promote the cause.
I am also doing critical research skills next semester so perhaps I wll start boring you all with that too.
So next semester is the start of getting a little more intensive on the Chinese Subject side rather than the Western Medicine side,so I am hoping that it will be alot more motivating for me.That is not to say that I havent found the Western Med subjects fascinating,more the chemistry side of things! Hoorah no more!
I have just purchased the biggest book on Clinincal medicine and opened it up! Its pretty impressive.Pathology is impressive ,but its also scary! Hmmmmmm...perhaps I should look at all these big unknown words as exciting! The only problem is that the only chance I will ever get to use them is when talking to a doctor or others interested in clinical meds.........its not like you can just drop it into a conversation or display your talent on a wall! ..........hmpf.
BUT BUT BUT..........i will start needling next semester and performing moxabustion and dermal hammering and cupping and bleeding and,and ,and!
So I will keep you posted on all of that!
I am just posting a link Acupuncture. Whats good for you! for you guys to watch.......the link is at the top and not easy to see but the video is quite interesting although basic,but ,anything to promote the cause.
I am also doing critical research skills next semester so perhaps I wll start boring you all with that too.
Day 16?????
I am in this very moment being gripped by a craving for a ciggie! My mind is rabid with thoughts of popping to the shops to buy a packet and smoke one! BUT never fear..........I wont..............its day 16?
Why the question mark I hear you say.....well........ermmmmmm......technically I havent booted the habit completely.I have had about 6 cigarettes in the last 8 days.I could say it was because I have had a highly stressful week,(and I have) but I really dont want to use that as an excuse as to why I smoked but I did and I feel crappy about it! I did say fromt he start that i would be happy to indulge from time to time and I guess 6 ciggies out of the 300 I would have usually smoked is great,but somehow as is always my way I feel i have let myself down.But I havent have I really??I guess I should be patting myself on the back for having achieved this at all.But everyone around me gives off waves of disappointment rather than encouragement and this saddens me a little.It feels to me like the fact that I had a ciggie at all is like I have failed,but in part ,I feel like there is no failure ,just an honest desire to get healthier and trying my best I am certainly not smoking full-time and my most vulnerable time is after finishing work at night,or if I have a coffee,so I am working with that.
I feel better for being a mostly non-smoker....or whatever you would call me now!
Why the question mark I hear you say.....well........ermmmmmm......technically I havent booted the habit completely.I have had about 6 cigarettes in the last 8 days.I could say it was because I have had a highly stressful week,(and I have) but I really dont want to use that as an excuse as to why I smoked but I did and I feel crappy about it! I did say fromt he start that i would be happy to indulge from time to time and I guess 6 ciggies out of the 300 I would have usually smoked is great,but somehow as is always my way I feel i have let myself down.But I havent have I really??I guess I should be patting myself on the back for having achieved this at all.But everyone around me gives off waves of disappointment rather than encouragement and this saddens me a little.It feels to me like the fact that I had a ciggie at all is like I have failed,but in part ,I feel like there is no failure ,just an honest desire to get healthier and trying my best I am certainly not smoking full-time and my most vulnerable time is after finishing work at night,or if I have a coffee,so I am working with that.
I feel better for being a mostly non-smoker....or whatever you would call me now!
Water ! Water!
Water or Coke?
Having been a very big fan of coke for many years(God Bless my insides) I have on many occasions treated it like an addiction.I have tried to give it up and go without.Sometimes on a very hot day I will have one but after reading this I think not~~ I havent had a coke for a while now due to my new love of soda water with ginger cordial! You see I dont think its the coke I really am addicted to but its the fizz,the bubbles and the way they fill my mouth with excitement and it quenches my thirst so well!
After reading this I really felt I should try and drink more water too~I hope you find this as interesting as I did.
WATER
#1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated.
(Likely applies to half the world population.)
#2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak
that it is mistaken for hunger.
#3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as 3%.
#4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs
for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of
Washington study.
#5. Lack of water, the #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.
#6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of
water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain
for up to 80% of sufferers.
#7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term
memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on
the computer screen or on a ! printed page.
#8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of
colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast
cancer by 79%., and one is 50% less likely to develop
bladder cancer. Are you drinking the amount of water
you should drink every day?
COKE
#1. In many states the highway patrol carries
two gallons of Coke in the trunk to remove blood from
the highway after a car accident.
#2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of Coke
and it will be gone in two days.
#3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the
toilet bowl and let the "real thing" sit for one hour,
then flush clean. The citric acid in Coke removes
stains from vitreous china.
#4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers:
Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of Reynolds
Wrap aluminum foil dipped in Coca-Cola.
#5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour
a can of Coca-Cola over the terminals to bubble
away the corrosion.
#6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Apply a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola
to the rusted bolt for several minutes.
#7. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into
the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake.
Thirty minutes before ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix
with the Coke for a sumptuous brown gravy.
#8... To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of Coke
into the load of greasy clothes, add detergent, and run
through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will help loosen
grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your
windshield.
FOR YOUR INFORMATION:
#1.
the active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid.
It will dissolve a nail in about four days. Phosphoric
acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major
contributor to the rising increase of osteoporosis.
#2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup! (the concentrate) the
commercial trucks must use a hazardous Material place
cards reserved for highly corrosive materials.
#3. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean
engines of the trucks for about 20 years!
Now the question is, would you like a glass of water?
or Coke?
Having been a very big fan of coke for many years(God Bless my insides) I have on many occasions treated it like an addiction.I have tried to give it up and go without.Sometimes on a very hot day I will have one but after reading this I think not~~ I havent had a coke for a while now due to my new love of soda water with ginger cordial! You see I dont think its the coke I really am addicted to but its the fizz,the bubbles and the way they fill my mouth with excitement and it quenches my thirst so well!
After reading this I really felt I should try and drink more water too~I hope you find this as interesting as I did.
WATER
#1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated.
(Likely applies to half the world population.)
#2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak
that it is mistaken for hunger.
#3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as 3%.
#4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs
for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a University of
Washington study.
#5. Lack of water, the #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.
#6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of
water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain
for up to 80% of sufferers.
#7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term
memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on
the computer screen or on a ! printed page.
#8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of
colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast
cancer by 79%., and one is 50% less likely to develop
bladder cancer. Are you drinking the amount of water
you should drink every day?
COKE
#1. In many states the highway patrol carries
two gallons of Coke in the trunk to remove blood from
the highway after a car accident.
#2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of Coke
and it will be gone in two days.
#3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the
toilet bowl and let the "real thing" sit for one hour,
then flush clean. The citric acid in Coke removes
stains from vitreous china.
#4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers:
Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of Reynolds
Wrap aluminum foil dipped in Coca-Cola.
#5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour
a can of Coca-Cola over the terminals to bubble
away the corrosion.
#6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Apply a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola
to the rusted bolt for several minutes.
#7. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into
the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake.
Thirty minutes before ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix
with the Coke for a sumptuous brown gravy.
#8... To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of Coke
into the load of greasy clothes, add detergent, and run
through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will help loosen
grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your
windshield.
FOR YOUR INFORMATION:
#1.
the active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid.
It will dissolve a nail in about four days. Phosphoric
acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major
contributor to the rising increase of osteoporosis.
#2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup! (the concentrate) the
commercial trucks must use a hazardous Material place
cards reserved for highly corrosive materials.
#3. The distributors of Coke have been using it to clean
engines of the trucks for about 20 years!
Now the question is, would you like a glass of water?
or Coke?
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Booting the habit....Day 5
Okay! I major shift in my world! I have not had a smoke for 5 days.
This is a pretty amazing thing for me as I havent gone a day without a ciggie in 17 years.
This is a decision that I am completely in control of.I decided the time was right to give it a go and here I am 5 days down the track! It feels like a lifetime and in the same instance alot easier than I anticipated.
Day one and two have been the easiest so far.Day 3 was a nightmare!I managed to have a fight with the lady in the local shop over the price of a Peppermint Freddo Frog and felt like a deep dark hole would gobble me up if I didnt smoke a ciggie.Of course it didnt but in the mean time I stole one of my bosses smokes just in case it did ! The cigarette is still sitting in my work apron 2 days later!Day 4 and 5 are better but I have spent much time negotiating with myself,planning when and where I might have a ciggie if I was to,telling myself that once in a while one smoke would be okay!I could be a social smoker surely?? or if not even that a smoke once or twice a week would be okay.......Its such a powerful drug!!!
Fortunately I have a few really supportive friends who have called me quite a few times to talk with me through the tough times ........one who has never smoked and one who gave up a few months ago but has the occasional.Its those calls that mean a heap to me.This is a strange new territory for me and I feel strangely disconnected from myself! I am so used to having a ciggie in my hand that I am not entirely sure who ths girl is that has not had a puff for 5 days........there are limitless possibilitie that open up in my head when I think about being a non-smoker and they are all so positive.
I have been really careful to not replace the cigs with any food! I think it would be easy to stuff in chocolate and all sorts of crap in an attempt to fill the hole ,but I really dont want to gain any weight and this is the time to forge new routines not just replace the old ways with another unhealthy addiction.Anyways I cant go into my local shop to buy Freddo Frogs anymore so I guess that I must have subconciously sabotaged that one!
So my way of thinking at the moment is TODAY I AM NOT SMOKING ..........
lets just see how it goes
Monday, January 29, 2007
Whos got more time on thier hands...........Her or me???
Wow.........I had to practice this quite a few times before I fully understood it but hey listen by the time you get it, i reckon its going to change your folding habits for a lifetime~!
You can thank me later~!
Bliss!
Hah Hah!
Here I am! I bet you thought I had disappeared off the face of the planet!That perhaps all my stresses and lack of hair had got the better of me and I had decided in the light of all of this to sign myself up as a Buddhist Monk ...........but no!Here I am! back and sparkling and brand spanking new!
Hair is growing back........albeit slowly,but there is a nice short tufty patch developing.I think it might grow back as a salt and pepper colour by the looks of it,but we shall see.
Fees for next semester are slowly accumulating in my bank account ,slowly being the operative word but all the same I will make the financial deadline.
Study is more or less non-existent and I still have another month before I start! Yehaw! Although I am trying to fit in a little here and there to keep it in my head!
Sleep is plentiful!
Holiday in Adelaide with the J-ster very chilled and lots of beach time and chill time! So now have nice tan !
Have lost 2 kilos of sitting on my arse studying weight!
Best of all as I look out the window here it is sunny and warm! Even better than that,I know I can go out and enjoy it any time I like! Hooray!
Thats all from me for the mo! I have some painting to do! Am working on some childrens pictures as part of my resolution to be a little more creative
Ciao for now~
Here I am! I bet you thought I had disappeared off the face of the planet!That perhaps all my stresses and lack of hair had got the better of me and I had decided in the light of all of this to sign myself up as a Buddhist Monk ...........but no!Here I am! back and sparkling and brand spanking new!
Hair is growing back........albeit slowly,but there is a nice short tufty patch developing.I think it might grow back as a salt and pepper colour by the looks of it,but we shall see.
Fees for next semester are slowly accumulating in my bank account ,slowly being the operative word but all the same I will make the financial deadline.
Study is more or less non-existent and I still have another month before I start! Yehaw! Although I am trying to fit in a little here and there to keep it in my head!
Sleep is plentiful!
Holiday in Adelaide with the J-ster very chilled and lots of beach time and chill time! So now have nice tan !
Have lost 2 kilos of sitting on my arse studying weight!
Best of all as I look out the window here it is sunny and warm! Even better than that,I know I can go out and enjoy it any time I like! Hooray!
Thats all from me for the mo! I have some painting to do! Am working on some childrens pictures as part of my resolution to be a little more creative
Ciao for now~
Friday, December 22, 2006
Merry Christmas!
Today is my last day of work before we drive off to the coast about 7 hours from Melbourne to sun, sea, sand and relaxation! Hoorah! We are off to a place called Merimbula! Apparently very beautiful and just the ticket for winding down! Its been crazy for me and I havent stopped since my exams ,thrown into a frenzy of work(which is great)and preparing for Christmas,but the bags are packed,the cat box is ready and i am raring to go!
Its been an amazing year .So many challenges and changes.They have all been wonderful and certainly I feel a better individual because of them.Although I have less hair,its all a lesson in how to adapt and change the way I approach life.That is never a bad thing.I recieved my exam results and did very well.The usual mix of distinctions,High dstinctions and credits.Its good.Perhaps though it is time to work out how to approach my studies with less intensity and more savvy.I feel tired and running on debt of energy.I know that with a break it will all come good.heading down to see the J-ster in the new year and so with 3 weeks of chill time to look forward to I can only hope that I will back to my more bouncy self in no time!
I am looking forward to the new Year.I feel better changes ahead and a feeling of allowing things to just "be" rather than trying to shape them too much .Its time to let go and trust a little more that things will turn out for the best.
As for you guys???????? I hope the New Year brings much peace ,understanding and happiness.Your health abundant and your purse strings never tight!
Its over and out from me for a while but I shall be back!
Merry christmas and Happy New year!!!!!!!
Its been an amazing year .So many challenges and changes.They have all been wonderful and certainly I feel a better individual because of them.Although I have less hair,its all a lesson in how to adapt and change the way I approach life.That is never a bad thing.I recieved my exam results and did very well.The usual mix of distinctions,High dstinctions and credits.Its good.Perhaps though it is time to work out how to approach my studies with less intensity and more savvy.I feel tired and running on debt of energy.I know that with a break it will all come good.heading down to see the J-ster in the new year and so with 3 weeks of chill time to look forward to I can only hope that I will back to my more bouncy self in no time!
I am looking forward to the new Year.I feel better changes ahead and a feeling of allowing things to just "be" rather than trying to shape them too much .Its time to let go and trust a little more that things will turn out for the best.
As for you guys???????? I hope the New Year brings much peace ,understanding and happiness.Your health abundant and your purse strings never tight!
Its over and out from me for a while but I shall be back!
Merry christmas and Happy New year!!!!!!!
Friday, December 01, 2006
Its raining ,its pouring ,the old man is snoring!
Fuck. Yesterday was supposed to be a day of rest! You know,try and get my hair to grow back cos as the chemist said,be prepared,more could fall out..........Okay so I might need a wig for christmas and anyways I had processed that kind of......But then I lost my job in the city.........I have never been let go of anywhere before.........never.So my pride feels a bit dented.My stress levels up a dash more.I have fees to pay I have to save money.Alot of money.Phew I think,thank god for my little financial plan........I can fall back on that a bit next year to pay fro my fees.I have put 20 tousand dollars in that over the last 3 years,a partial surrender will get me that cash........NOPE........a very very very small return will pay for dit,just enought o pay back the cash I owe my uncle......Fark,stress levels rising.......I decide to go to the solarium to get a bit of Vitamin D for my hair.......I have a massive run in witht he lady at the couter...the machine doesnt work properly and I keep getting up to tell her and she thinks its me.......I cant deal with this.I tell her she has a bad attitude and leave..........Stress levels rising...........alright go home put windows on shuffle qand lie down.......ahhhhhhhh thats better........is there something in the stars today??? Is mars and saturn playing funny buggers with my life? Can I let all this go? Can I look at the positive side??
I call my boss up the road(my second job) tell him whats happened.....can he help..Yes he can ......lots of work! Hoorah~!okay stress levels decreasing.Tell my fam about the finances ...can they help?? Yes if it comes to it they will lend me whatever I need to make up if I am short..........ah stress levels decreasing........goooooood!
So I am sitting here thinking to myself ,this has happened for a reason.I always analyse moment like this and think bad things happen which initiae change.That change is usually always for the better.......so I am meditating on that thought for a while and knowing that although it was and is stressful at the moment there is something really good coming.....a pathway to another destination,which I havent quite found yet.The changes I couldnt make were made for me.........so I can see that pathway when it comes along.I feel a bit better.
I call my boss up the road(my second job) tell him whats happened.....can he help..Yes he can ......lots of work! Hoorah~!okay stress levels decreasing.Tell my fam about the finances ...can they help?? Yes if it comes to it they will lend me whatever I need to make up if I am short..........ah stress levels decreasing........goooooood!
So I am sitting here thinking to myself ,this has happened for a reason.I always analyse moment like this and think bad things happen which initiae change.That change is usually always for the better.......so I am meditating on that thought for a while and knowing that although it was and is stressful at the moment there is something really good coming.....a pathway to another destination,which I havent quite found yet.The changes I couldnt make were made for me.........so I can see that pathway when it comes along.I feel a bit better.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Stress Management?
This has been one of the most insane times of my life.I have been going hard for the last 3 weeks! Constant study,worry and stress.I have eaten a million Executive B vitamins,a coupla bottles of rescue remedy and am now done.I do have this rather amazing bald spot on my head to show for the fact that I have not coped well with these exams.Woke up on tuesday with it.It just happened over night.......I cant believe it.It was a rude wake up call.Sarah,slow down,take it easy ,your going too fast,be good to yourself,a pass is enough.........I now have 3 months off from college to grow back my hair and work on how to cope better with exams.For now though I just wanna rest.My head hurts and I am so so tired! Lets hope all this hard work paid off.Results in 2 weeks.....
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