So.........Its been a wierd couple of months.Extreme highs followed by what I first percieved to be an extreme low! You know the kind.Hard to get out of bed,feel like a sack of potatoes,no one loves me,end of the garden ,worm eating and general beating up on oneself.
STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP!
Reality check..........
1. I made myself vulnerable.What this really means is I have been open and honest with my feelings and who I am! I love that!
2.I am lonely.What this really means is that I am so focused on my dreams and goals that I havent made time for anything else in my life......I can work on that!
3.I am not worthy.eh hem.I ended it because I believed I am worth more than what I was recieveing and the result was the revealtion that I was right!
4.I miss intimacy-kind of the same as the above and again something I am working on.Its not a bad thing to miss intimacy but I can seek it in all kinds of ways.Self,friends,pets and spirit.
5.I will never find what I am looking for.Yes I will.I just need to be patient.It is my right to be happy and fufilled.
So those are a few things I wrangled with this week.I have worked through them all and come out on top.I am moving forward positively.I am radiant even.
This girl will not be beat,or pulled down by lifes little upsets! She will always work through them and seek the positive and then seek to action them.
It all feel rather good!
2 comments:
I hate the rollercoaster. I often see it as a tightrope, and there is the need to keep balanced while you are up high and then the fall, so little in between.
You sound pretty balanced despite the buffeting winds...
glad to hear you getting through the turbulence and finding blue skies again.
you sound strong & confident & beautiful
wonderful wonderful...wonderFULL!!!
am sitting hear cheering you from afar.
miss you, babe.
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