Fuck. Yesterday was supposed to be a day of rest! You know,try and get my hair to grow back cos as the chemist said,be prepared,more could fall out..........Okay so I might need a wig for christmas and anyways I had processed that kind of......But then I lost my job in the city.........I have never been let go of anywhere before.........never.So my pride feels a bit dented.My stress levels up a dash more.I have fees to pay I have to save money.Alot of money.Phew I think,thank god for my little financial plan........I can fall back on that a bit next year to pay fro my fees.I have put 20 tousand dollars in that over the last 3 years,a partial surrender will get me that cash........NOPE........a very very very small return will pay for dit,just enought o pay back the cash I owe my uncle......Fark,stress levels rising.......I decide to go to the solarium to get a bit of Vitamin D for my hair.......I have a massive run in witht he lady at the couter...the machine doesnt work properly and I keep getting up to tell her and she thinks its me.......I cant deal with this.I tell her she has a bad attitude and leave..........Stress levels rising...........alright go home put windows on shuffle qand lie down.......ahhhhhhhh thats better........is there something in the stars today??? Is mars and saturn playing funny buggers with my life? Can I let all this go? Can I look at the positive side??
I call my boss up the road(my second job) tell him whats happened.....can he help..Yes he can ......lots of work! Hoorah~!okay stress levels decreasing.Tell my fam about the finances ...can they help?? Yes if it comes to it they will lend me whatever I need to make up if I am short..........ah stress levels decreasing........goooooood!
So I am sitting here thinking to myself ,this has happened for a reason.I always analyse moment like this and think bad things happen which initiae change.That change is usually always for the better.......so I am meditating on that thought for a while and knowing that although it was and is stressful at the moment there is something really good coming.....a pathway to another destination,which I havent quite found yet.The changes I couldnt make were made for me.........so I can see that pathway when it comes along.I feel a bit better.
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So glad to have you back in the blogosphere! But sorry your hair is leaving. Mine is too, but not in spots - I think it is the endless summer that has me shedding. How about you come here to help you to relax? Cause there is nothing else to do...
xo and suerte con sus examinaciones!
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