My Head.........

Okay its really not great news..........
I have been ill.REALLY ill.Its been going on now for six weeks.The good news Ill be okay.The bad news.....we dont know if or even when I will get better........... Hmmmm....positive bunny arent I? but then to be honest I have been through hell.

The short of it is that I have a Neuralgia in my face and head. Migrainous or trigeminal or glossopharangeal...........we are not sure.What I am sure of is the excruciating debilitating pain that I have been in.Its been likened to giving birth several times a day but the pain is in your head.I am now no longer afraid of labour.
I have been to see dentists,doctors and now specialists.I am currently on epilepsy medications to stabilise the nerve membranes in my head and this has helped tremendously.I am now no longer struck down suddenly with excruciating stabbing pain and reduced to a flood of tears (not through fear through pain)Instead now I get good days and bad days where my head hurts worse than others.Im not great to be around these days.
I have been allowed to reduce my college load and I am trying to rest and get well.
I have had heaps of support from friends and family which has been a wonderful reminder that no man is an island and I couldnt have done any of this without them.I would have probably topped myself from the pain.
Im trying to gather lessons from this and certainly am not stuck in poor me mode or even why me mode,I think I am now in the mode where I have to try and make sense of it all surrender to it and pray that it remisses.