As some of you may know I have just started a new job.
Its so perfect for me.
I am working in a Natural therapies environment as P.A to the owner. There is a shop and 2 clinics.
She is a clinical Hypnotherapist, who a few years ago decided to take it one step further and open a shop and then a clinic.
The business has grown faster than she could implement policies and procedures,so its a bit 'higgedly Piggedly' and she needs help.
I started just before Christmas and did 2 days training before becoming acting Clinic Manager and class coordinator while the wonderful woman who usually does this job was away on a much needed break.
My boss ( an ideas lady) mentions to me that we are doing a Street Fetival at the end of February.Its a communty Health and Happiness festival.She gives me a few things to do.............before I know it I am now coordinating a massive event with an expected turn out of 1000 people plus.
Ive organised sports clubs and dance groups and spinning wheel prizes,market stalls,first aid,pamphlets .........the list goes on.
Ive never done anything like this before. Its big.I am talking to a lot of people. Its sort of my baby.
At first I took it on with gusto.I still have gusto dont get me wrong but then suddenly it has grown to a size where its really quite major.Im proud of myself for finding out that I can do things like this.I am learning sooooooooooo much, but suddenly it seems so big that today I got quite scared.
I am responsible.
Watch this space.
27th Feb.
Think of me!
Friday, February 06, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Im not Keen, but certainly interested
(Blue) Nervous system
(Green) Digestive & excretory system
(Red) Circulatory system
(orange) Respiratory system
(Yellow) Reproductive system
1 Fang (chelicera)
2 Venom gland
3 Brain
4 Pumping stomach
5 Forward aorta branch
6 Digestive cecum
7 Heart
8 Midgut
9 Malphigian tubules
10 Cloacal chamber
11 Rear aorta
12 Spinneret
13 Silk gland
14 Trachea
15 Ovary (female)
16 Book lung
17 Nerve cord
18 Legs
19 Pedipalp
Today seemed to be a day where I just kept bumping into Spiders. I admit;it certainly isn't a favourite past time of mine but I couldn't help thinking there was some meaning behind it all.
Let me just clarify here. I woke up . There was a spider on my ceiling. Not too big.Easily manageable. I got to work and went to make a cuppa. Spider on the tap. Small. Kind of cute and certainly manageable. Okay , so a switch goes off in my head. Hmmm 2nd spider of the day. Interesting, but forgettable.
I drive to other office at work and pull over randomly behind a parked car to take off my thongs (shoes for those of you who are not living in Australia) which are slipping on the clutch while I drive. There dangling like a huge moster/ beauty/fine specimen of its type......whatever you would like to think of these 8 legged creatures ; is the biggest huntsman I have ever seen. Just hanging out, dangling from the tow port on the back of the car that I just happen to randomly pull in behind.NOT FORGETTABLE.
Brain is definitely now aware that spiders are the theme of the day.I make a perfunctionary vague gaze around my own car (insides of car , as there is no escaping if one decides to land on my lap or lollop onto my head while a swinging from its silky rope from my rear view mirror while I am in the act of driving at 100kms an hour, but also vague because one is not really wanting to look too hard just in case the very thought of thinking it will make it suddenly appear in front of me)
Anyway 3 sightings in a short space of time. Gets me thinking. Whats the symbolism. I get home and take a look and I find this lovely picture. Well, that one up there.
fascinating truly fascinating. Now I truly understand why I am wary of these creatures.Wouldn't you be if you realised its Trachea was in its arse????
And Malphigian tubules.............well to quote Wikipedia
Most spiders convert nitrogenous waste products into uric acid, which can be excreted as a dry material. Malphigian tubules ("little tubes") extract these wastes from the blood in the hemocoel and dump them into the cloacal chamber, from which they are expelled through the anus.[6] Production of uric acid and its removal via Malphigian tubules are a water-conserving feature that has evolved independently in several arthropod lineages that can live far away from water
And then theres the Pedipalps..................well I never................
those pincery thingy-me-bobs have a proper name...........Fascinating truly fascinating.
So I feel good. I got to know something that I disliked a little better today.
I got to know something that scares me, and maybe wont scare me so much the next time......... if I can rationalise that its an 8 legged creature with Pedipalps, ovaries and Malphigian Tubules............I won't hold my breathe but it was still fascinating!
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
The year
Its not a resolution.
I dont do resolutions!
I have decided to rename them VISIONS.
My visions for the upcoming year
1. Good Health.I envisage resolving the headache I have had for the last 5 months.
2. Lots of Bodywork-I am severly lacking in good therapeutic touch.
3. Non escalation-I dont want to dramatise issues.I dont want to get caught up in the rising tensions of issues.I plan to observe them and not attach myself to drama.If someone wants me to attach myself to thier drama it just aint gonna happen.I am working on supporting and letting go. Myself and others.
4. Nurturing self. Quiet time. Time doing nothing. This nothing time often becomes reflection and inspiration time.
5. A healthy relationship with myself,family and friends and hey possibly even a man.The man part had been put on the back burner for sometime due to Uni and ill health,but it would be very nice to develop a relationship with a man who respects my boundaries, is independent, caring and talented in dealing with me!
6. I will qualify this year as a Dr of Acupuncture.This is very exciting but there is alot to organise in the way of registrations and new homes and I am hoping some good time to take a break and see some long awaiting friends from afar.
7. Creating positive inner chatter.
8.I have a new job!!! I am now a P.A to a succesful Hypnotherapist and business owner of "Simply Natural Therapies".This is a wonderful opportunity for me to further my experience in the field of Alternative therapies.It also means I dont work in hospitality anymore! Yehaw.....something I have been working towards for a while now! Thank you Thank you Thank you!
9. Affluence/Abundance on all levels.
10.Positive mental attitude about me and life.Sadly life this year has battered me around a little and its eroded away my vitality on a physical and mental level.This needs restoring.
Okay thats enough to be going on with. I have fixed these things in my mind and have put them out there. This is going to be a big year for me. Lots of endings and some bloody big beginnings!
Happy Happy New Year!
I dont do resolutions!
I have decided to rename them VISIONS.
My visions for the upcoming year
1. Good Health.I envisage resolving the headache I have had for the last 5 months.
2. Lots of Bodywork-I am severly lacking in good therapeutic touch.
3. Non escalation-I dont want to dramatise issues.I dont want to get caught up in the rising tensions of issues.I plan to observe them and not attach myself to drama.If someone wants me to attach myself to thier drama it just aint gonna happen.I am working on supporting and letting go. Myself and others.
4. Nurturing self. Quiet time. Time doing nothing. This nothing time often becomes reflection and inspiration time.
5. A healthy relationship with myself,family and friends and hey possibly even a man.The man part had been put on the back burner for sometime due to Uni and ill health,but it would be very nice to develop a relationship with a man who respects my boundaries, is independent, caring and talented in dealing with me!
6. I will qualify this year as a Dr of Acupuncture.This is very exciting but there is alot to organise in the way of registrations and new homes and I am hoping some good time to take a break and see some long awaiting friends from afar.
7. Creating positive inner chatter.
8.I have a new job!!! I am now a P.A to a succesful Hypnotherapist and business owner of "Simply Natural Therapies".This is a wonderful opportunity for me to further my experience in the field of Alternative therapies.It also means I dont work in hospitality anymore! Yehaw.....something I have been working towards for a while now! Thank you Thank you Thank you!
9. Affluence/Abundance on all levels.
10.Positive mental attitude about me and life.Sadly life this year has battered me around a little and its eroded away my vitality on a physical and mental level.This needs restoring.
Okay thats enough to be going on with. I have fixed these things in my mind and have put them out there. This is going to be a big year for me. Lots of endings and some bloody big beginnings!
Happy Happy New Year!
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Update
WARNING- a cathartic post ahead.
My head is still not good.Some may say its always been a little odd anyways.
Its been 10 weeks.
I hate taking the medications(many) but I am petrified of coming off them.Nobody is telling me to mind you.
I feel like I have lost a part of myself to this thing. It takes over everything.
I am waiting for an epiphany,an understanding of why I have this affliction.I dont want to be a victim to it.As of yet the only thing I can come up with is that I need to slow down.
I have.
Its still here.
So I keep searching for the key that will unlock the door to understanding.
I understand the pathophysiology of this thing.I understand physically what is going on but to me there is more to this thing.A lesson not yet learnt and when I do it will disappear as quickly as it came.
Another thoery I am playing with right now is that the pain is literally breath taking.
Perhaps if I can release something that I have pushed down deep inside ,a painful experience or event that the pain will go.What in me or my past (the same thing in my mind) has been so painful that I have manifested this.
Im working on this.
I have alot of help.
Im trying EVERYTHING.
I cant live like this,but I am.
My head is still not good.Some may say its always been a little odd anyways.
Its been 10 weeks.
I hate taking the medications(many) but I am petrified of coming off them.Nobody is telling me to mind you.
I feel like I have lost a part of myself to this thing. It takes over everything.
I am waiting for an epiphany,an understanding of why I have this affliction.I dont want to be a victim to it.As of yet the only thing I can come up with is that I need to slow down.
I have.
Its still here.
So I keep searching for the key that will unlock the door to understanding.
I understand the pathophysiology of this thing.I understand physically what is going on but to me there is more to this thing.A lesson not yet learnt and when I do it will disappear as quickly as it came.
Another thoery I am playing with right now is that the pain is literally breath taking.
Perhaps if I can release something that I have pushed down deep inside ,a painful experience or event that the pain will go.What in me or my past (the same thing in my mind) has been so painful that I have manifested this.
Im working on this.
I have alot of help.
Im trying EVERYTHING.
I cant live like this,but I am.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
My Head.........
Okay its really not great news..........
I have been ill.REALLY ill.Its been going on now for six weeks.The good news Ill be okay.The bad news.....we dont know if or even when I will get better........... Hmmmm....positive bunny arent I? but then to be honest I have been through hell.
The short of it is that I have a Neuralgia in my face and head. Migrainous or trigeminal or glossopharangeal...........we are not sure.What I am sure of is the excruciating debilitating pain that I have been in.Its been likened to giving birth several times a day but the pain is in your head.I am now no longer afraid of labour.
I have been to see dentists,doctors and now specialists.I am currently on epilepsy medications to stabilise the nerve membranes in my head and this has helped tremendously.I am now no longer struck down suddenly with excruciating stabbing pain and reduced to a flood of tears (not through fear through pain)Instead now I get good days and bad days where my head hurts worse than others.Im not great to be around these days.
I have been allowed to reduce my college load and I am trying to rest and get well.
I have had heaps of support from friends and family which has been a wonderful reminder that no man is an island and I couldnt have done any of this without them.I would have probably topped myself from the pain.
Im trying to gather lessons from this and certainly am not stuck in poor me mode or even why me mode,I think I am now in the mode where I have to try and make sense of it all surrender to it and pray that it remisses.
I have been ill.REALLY ill.Its been going on now for six weeks.The good news Ill be okay.The bad news.....we dont know if or even when I will get better........... Hmmmm....positive bunny arent I? but then to be honest I have been through hell.
The short of it is that I have a Neuralgia in my face and head. Migrainous or trigeminal or glossopharangeal...........we are not sure.What I am sure of is the excruciating debilitating pain that I have been in.Its been likened to giving birth several times a day but the pain is in your head.I am now no longer afraid of labour.
I have been to see dentists,doctors and now specialists.I am currently on epilepsy medications to stabilise the nerve membranes in my head and this has helped tremendously.I am now no longer struck down suddenly with excruciating stabbing pain and reduced to a flood of tears (not through fear through pain)Instead now I get good days and bad days where my head hurts worse than others.Im not great to be around these days.
I have been allowed to reduce my college load and I am trying to rest and get well.
I have had heaps of support from friends and family which has been a wonderful reminder that no man is an island and I couldnt have done any of this without them.I would have probably topped myself from the pain.
Im trying to gather lessons from this and certainly am not stuck in poor me mode or even why me mode,I think I am now in the mode where I have to try and make sense of it all surrender to it and pray that it remisses.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Bird in a a bag
In the morning he brought me mouse.
In the afternoon he brought me magpie .
In the evening he brought me a pink canary in a plastic bag....
Why oh why I didnt take a picture I do not know but how on earth did my sweet little boy find a pink canary in a ziplock bag???
I can only imagine that some unsuspecting individual experienced the passing of thier dear sweet bird and put it on the front step to bury in the garden only to return and find there had been a body snatching incident.
I know for fact that he couldnt have pilfered it from a bin as all our bins out here are tall wheely bins with lids,so unless benji has developed the fine art of lifting lids it didnt happen that way.
I guess I should have posted some notes around the neighbourhood informing of dear sweet pink canary in ziplock bag found in the jaws of dear sweet ginger puss but I was too busy laughing ............
In the afternoon he brought me magpie .
In the evening he brought me a pink canary in a plastic bag....
Why oh why I didnt take a picture I do not know but how on earth did my sweet little boy find a pink canary in a ziplock bag???
I can only imagine that some unsuspecting individual experienced the passing of thier dear sweet bird and put it on the front step to bury in the garden only to return and find there had been a body snatching incident.
I know for fact that he couldnt have pilfered it from a bin as all our bins out here are tall wheely bins with lids,so unless benji has developed the fine art of lifting lids it didnt happen that way.
I guess I should have posted some notes around the neighbourhood informing of dear sweet pink canary in ziplock bag found in the jaws of dear sweet ginger puss but I was too busy laughing ............
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Consipitation
No,Its not a spelling mistake but a rather endearing way that my radical, highly regarded Chinese professor refers to constipation.I am well into my cinics at this stage in the game.
This entails running the acupuncture clinic as a group of students and seeing clients from the "outside". Its all very exciting.
For every client we see we have to take a detailed case study and then consult with our chinese professor. He is an interesting man.He has over 40 years experience in the field and as well as extensive research , a clinic he runs in Collins street (a highly priced business district),and a passion for stamp collecting,he finds the time to teach in Victoria University and with us.He cured himself of a stroke with acupuncture and still seems to chuff rather alot of cigarettes,but he knows his stuff.
When he inserts a needle the air in the room seems to stop.I find myself holding my breath and standing there waiting....not quite sure what im waitng for or even if I am ,perhaps I am just in awe. He can see and feel qi like its a solid entity and can tell when its shifted and when something is better.He can cure a muscle ache with one needle in 5 minutes.He has cured chronic shoulder problems with a needle in the leg manipulated for 10 minutes.Hes cured cancer.He pays no heed to our rather conservative ways of treating and will happily needle deeply into organs...something I still quite havent got my head round and makes me feel somewhat sick,but it works,he gets results,and isnt that what people want when they are sick??
Ive decided not to do an internship in china.Purely financial.If I had the cash I would but I dont and so I wont and thats okay,but when I have Dr Zhou why the hell do I need too???
This entails running the acupuncture clinic as a group of students and seeing clients from the "outside". Its all very exciting.
For every client we see we have to take a detailed case study and then consult with our chinese professor. He is an interesting man.He has over 40 years experience in the field and as well as extensive research , a clinic he runs in Collins street (a highly priced business district),and a passion for stamp collecting,he finds the time to teach in Victoria University and with us.He cured himself of a stroke with acupuncture and still seems to chuff rather alot of cigarettes,but he knows his stuff.
When he inserts a needle the air in the room seems to stop.I find myself holding my breath and standing there waiting....not quite sure what im waitng for or even if I am ,perhaps I am just in awe. He can see and feel qi like its a solid entity and can tell when its shifted and when something is better.He can cure a muscle ache with one needle in 5 minutes.He has cured chronic shoulder problems with a needle in the leg manipulated for 10 minutes.Hes cured cancer.He pays no heed to our rather conservative ways of treating and will happily needle deeply into organs...something I still quite havent got my head round and makes me feel somewhat sick,but it works,he gets results,and isnt that what people want when they are sick??
Ive decided not to do an internship in china.Purely financial.If I had the cash I would but I dont and so I wont and thats okay,but when I have Dr Zhou why the hell do I need too???
Thursday, June 26, 2008
It cant be......
Holy craperoooooooo............I just looked at my blog and realised it had been 6 months since my last post.Bless me father for I have sinned.
Where did the time go??? I feel like I have entered Dr whos tardis and now here I am thinking to myself what happened while I was flip flopping around up here in my head,which is where I spend most of my time these days.
To top it all off I find out Miss Sins love has had TB and Arumanda is in gay pareeh.these are only 2 of the people that I like to watch as they progres along in life..........Im not sure that anyone is even reading this...........you may all think I have gone, disappeared into magical head land never to return from the ocean of acupuncture points and disease processes.
No I am here.......
Just about
Just finished a round of very intense exams and now am about to head into winter school.I have finally made it into clinics and am practising on the general public.I am almost there ! Another year and you can call me Dr.
I have 2 jobs that nearly make up full time hours and a full time degree.Oh its hard but I just do it and find very little time for anything else in my life! Nothing of import to impart.........unless of course I find a creative way of imparting all of this knowledge that I am accumulating up here in my ever expanding brain.....
Let me think on that one.
For the most part I am well and happy but self absorbed,so apologies........I will try harder.
Where did the time go??? I feel like I have entered Dr whos tardis and now here I am thinking to myself what happened while I was flip flopping around up here in my head,which is where I spend most of my time these days.
To top it all off I find out Miss Sins love has had TB and Arumanda is in gay pareeh.these are only 2 of the people that I like to watch as they progres along in life..........Im not sure that anyone is even reading this...........you may all think I have gone, disappeared into magical head land never to return from the ocean of acupuncture points and disease processes.
No I am here.......
Just about
Just finished a round of very intense exams and now am about to head into winter school.I have finally made it into clinics and am practising on the general public.I am almost there ! Another year and you can call me Dr.
I have 2 jobs that nearly make up full time hours and a full time degree.Oh its hard but I just do it and find very little time for anything else in my life! Nothing of import to impart.........unless of course I find a creative way of imparting all of this knowledge that I am accumulating up here in my ever expanding brain.....
Let me think on that one.
For the most part I am well and happy but self absorbed,so apologies........I will try harder.
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Same same but different.........
This happened last year..........something in the stars?........a new year clean out? ..........or just coincidence???
I quit the job I have been in for 2 years.I found another one the same day! Hooray! A very chilled place with great people and much more my thing!At long last I am appreciated.It was a healthy decision.A similar thing happened last year where I lost my job around the same time.Odd.
Benji puss is sick.He has skin cancer on his nose.Its treatable,but hes in discomfort and thats just no fun for the little guy...its going to cost me a fortune.Same thing happened at the same time last year.......he got sick and cost me a fortune?!
What is going on???
I quit the job I have been in for 2 years.I found another one the same day! Hooray! A very chilled place with great people and much more my thing!At long last I am appreciated.It was a healthy decision.A similar thing happened last year where I lost my job around the same time.Odd.
Benji puss is sick.He has skin cancer on his nose.Its treatable,but hes in discomfort and thats just no fun for the little guy...its going to cost me a fortune.Same thing happened at the same time last year.......he got sick and cost me a fortune?!
What is going on???
Friday, December 21, 2007
Dating games
So Im dating.
After seattle boy I decided it was time to dust off the cobwebs and get myself out there and noticed.
Study can lessen a little but this girl needs to go get some loving.
Ive never really "Dated" before.Ive always just met someone hooked up and so the story goes and here I am several long term relationships later.........nothing wrong with that.Its just the way it goes.Serial monogamist.But things are different now.I want to do some window shopping and try on a few different outfits before I make a purchase.
So there was singles party boy- Kiwi,very keen,wanted to monoploise me,bombarded me with texts and affirmations of how cool I was.Not interested.
The there was British boy- nice guy,wanted to talk about the Uk alot.I left there a long time and all the talk of it made me feel terribly depressed.Again texts and affirmations of desire.Not interested
Next was Media boy-He was cute.We talked alot about travelling,told me that if I saw any of his friends not to mention we met online.......wierd.Its such a viable way of meeting people these days.Again not interested.Told him so and I dont think he was that into me either so all cool.
Then we had psycho boy- Child psycologist,eyes like a vampire,looked nothing like his pic and scared the hell out of me.i think it was when his eyes followed the only people with kids out of the restaurant that I thought NO youre just ot right.The mention of a little walk after dinner also freaked me out.........would I like to see him again???? No.No messing just a plain straight no.He can handle it no freudian analysis there.
Next up is who I call second chance boy- Went on a date .He analysed the hell out of me and incorrectly.Found myself just wanting to go home and hide under the duvet.Emailed him the next day to say sorry no chemistry,to which he replied that he really thought I shoudl give him a second chance.........hmmmmmmm.........No.another reply....thats a shame please reconsider?I think to myself that this guy is brave so accept another date.
Now for the best one- Sydney boy-told him in no uncertain terms that hes in sydney and Im in melbourne.No harm talking he responds.Okay.2 months later after alot of talking and instant messaging we meet.Have a great weekend.Lots of chemistry,lots of fun.I like him.He lives in Sydney.Go figure.He is also still in love with ex girlfriend.Not willing to go there.Accuses me of falling in love with him and not to go there.....okay buddy unstick the tickets.I like you but it was just a weekend.Would do it again but feel slightly cheated.
Oh and here comes second chance boy again-this date was alot more relaxed,we had fun,not sue about the chemistry,but we can be friends and you can never have enough of those.........he wants to take me out to a fabulous italian ...okay accept date 3...which is to be continued.
And so the games continue...........and Im still dating..........
After seattle boy I decided it was time to dust off the cobwebs and get myself out there and noticed.
Study can lessen a little but this girl needs to go get some loving.
Ive never really "Dated" before.Ive always just met someone hooked up and so the story goes and here I am several long term relationships later.........nothing wrong with that.Its just the way it goes.Serial monogamist.But things are different now.I want to do some window shopping and try on a few different outfits before I make a purchase.
So there was singles party boy- Kiwi,very keen,wanted to monoploise me,bombarded me with texts and affirmations of how cool I was.Not interested.
The there was British boy- nice guy,wanted to talk about the Uk alot.I left there a long time and all the talk of it made me feel terribly depressed.Again texts and affirmations of desire.Not interested
Next was Media boy-He was cute.We talked alot about travelling,told me that if I saw any of his friends not to mention we met online.......wierd.Its such a viable way of meeting people these days.Again not interested.Told him so and I dont think he was that into me either so all cool.
Then we had psycho boy- Child psycologist,eyes like a vampire,looked nothing like his pic and scared the hell out of me.i think it was when his eyes followed the only people with kids out of the restaurant that I thought NO youre just ot right.The mention of a little walk after dinner also freaked me out.........would I like to see him again???? No.No messing just a plain straight no.He can handle it no freudian analysis there.
Next up is who I call second chance boy- Went on a date .He analysed the hell out of me and incorrectly.Found myself just wanting to go home and hide under the duvet.Emailed him the next day to say sorry no chemistry,to which he replied that he really thought I shoudl give him a second chance.........hmmmmmmm.........No.another reply....thats a shame please reconsider?I think to myself that this guy is brave so accept another date.
Now for the best one- Sydney boy-told him in no uncertain terms that hes in sydney and Im in melbourne.No harm talking he responds.Okay.2 months later after alot of talking and instant messaging we meet.Have a great weekend.Lots of chemistry,lots of fun.I like him.He lives in Sydney.Go figure.He is also still in love with ex girlfriend.Not willing to go there.Accuses me of falling in love with him and not to go there.....okay buddy unstick the tickets.I like you but it was just a weekend.Would do it again but feel slightly cheated.
Oh and here comes second chance boy again-this date was alot more relaxed,we had fun,not sue about the chemistry,but we can be friends and you can never have enough of those.........he wants to take me out to a fabulous italian ...okay accept date 3...which is to be continued.
And so the games continue...........and Im still dating..........
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