He rose again!!!

And after the 3rd day he rose again!
Only after a few days of disposing of the old and rather dearly departed bunny rabbit,(actually its still sitting in my draw while I decide exactly HOW TO dispose of it in a house where I live with my aunt,uncle and 2 kids........suggestions kindly welcome)I came home today to find a parcel on my bed!I love suprises! Especially parcel suprises but not in my wildest dreams did I anticipate that a VERY VERY KIND benefactor would take pity on my loss and understand the financial strife of a student and send me a BRAND NEW shiny rabbit!!!!!!!!It buzzes and lights and twirls and even has a cute bunny rabbit face!LUCKY LUCKY ME!!!!Give it and me some more time and it might even have other tricks up its sleeve!..........and so my dearest readers,I thank you for your sympathy at what was a very sad time,but as fickle as I am, old has been replaced with new and I am no longer grieving but grooving!
THANK YOU KIND BENEFACTOR

The 5 stages of grief.

Denial: The initial stage: "It can't be happening." As she pressed the "on" button of her Rabbit and the red light didnt flicker a flicker or make a peep of a noise.

Anger: "Why ME? It's not fair?!" (either referring to God, oneself, or anybody perceived, rightly or wrongly, as "responsible") In this case the duracell batteries that leaked all over the inside of the battery compartment that have now casued my beloved to die

Bargaining: "Just let me live to see it buzz and twirl one more time." Surely if I clean it out replace the batteries it will work again...........Please I will do anything if you just make the light light and the buzz,buzz.

Depression: "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?I have no money to buy a new one,it was the only thing that kept me sane" Being a student sucks.Do I now have to down grade to a pocket version.?

Acceptance: "It's going to be OK." Ill put some money away each week until I can afford to buy a new one .I will use my hairbrush or any penis shaped object! Its okay,Im creative.Fuck it!

A little more.............

Okay girls...I hear what you are saying. But bear with me for a while!
We met some 5 years ago.In thailand.Just before I went to Tokyo.It was a sliding door moment.I was strongly attracted to him but was heading to Tokyo to be with "he who must not be named".I remained faithful,but was curious about this man.He asked me to come with him when he left the island I was staying on(less than 24 hours after we met)..........I said no and as I watched him leave I was kicking myself that I had not followed this up.He sayed in touch with me and would call me frequently in Tokyo........we lost touch when he got shitty with me for staying with "he who must not be named" when it was obvious that I was allowing myself to be completely disrespected.But I was blinded by love and carried along.........we all know that story anyways and its past and gone.
Okay so long story short we were in and out of touch for some time and recently back in touch.When he doscovered I was in Oz and single and my spirit willing he hopped on a flight and whisked me away to the whitsundays.
It was a beautiful week and much needed on both our parts.We had great fun and lots of cocktails!
He has met all my family and friends here.He is now on a trip to the U.K and is going down to see the folks.Nothing seems to phase him.He seems to know what he wants.
I cant give you anymore than that girls..........we are now in a position where he lives in Seattle and I in Melbourne.I am just taking it one day at a time.If it is then it is and if it isnt it isnt and we shall see what the passage of time brings.Way too many dissppointmets in my life romantically to allow myself to abandon myself completely.

Fairy tales???

I have just got back from being in Queensland for a week.Lots of sunshine and relaxation.You may ask why I was off doing this kind of thing when I should have been working and studying hard!
Well it had to do with a man.Someone that has pursued me off and on for 5 years.We finally got it together and he travelled 9 thousand miles from seattle to melbourne and whisked me away to sunny lands so that we could spend some good time together!
Sounds romantic huh??? It was. Where to from now???? Plans of seattle and other stuff on the horizon.........who knows.Just watch this space.

Lights! camera and action!!!!!!

Had a beautiful morning with my nephews the other morning.A moment in time when we were lost in pure fantasy and fun.The innocence of thier little beings caught up in the magic of the surrounds. We played castles under my duvet.Played hide and seek,we danced like crazy banchees around my room beating my drum.We played scary monsters and played with my camera! It was the highlight of my week........Here are some of the pics that they took!

"No ordinary morning "by chicane.

I knew .
The moment that I hit the sand and saw your face twist .
It was lost.
I held on tight
But it was lost
I would have walked
I would have packed my bag and disappeared
I followed for a while
But you are gone now
And I am happy.............

Life coaching.

In japan I had a friend who was a life coach.He invited me to look further into it,but at the time I was wrapped up with moving and making new pathways for myself.So it stayed in the back vault of my mind for some time.

I believe that what you need comes to you time and time again until you take it up.Well it came back to me right here in little ol Oz in the restaurant I work in.
A friend of mine has just completed her training and asked me to be a client of hers for 6 weeks.She has to complete a certain amount of hours before she is fully qualified.I chuckle to myself at the strangeness of the universe,no,not the strangeness but the wonder of it always being consistent in its offerings.
So I have had 5 sessions with her and it has been such a rewarding process.In the last couple of months I have managed to move from being stuck in fear over several aspects of my life(work,study,love,self) to being able to tangibly (is this a word??) act out my dreams and desires for self.
Its not counselling.I am not going in and venting my angers, fears and frustration,but working with and actively trying to shift blocks to success.Rather than mentally staying in the mind ,you are asked to go one step further and put it into action.This call to action really suits me.I always rise to a challenge and love setting myself positive goals,but this moves you into setting the goal,overcoming challenges(lack of money,energy,confidence) and not allowing them to be blocks and enables you to seek solutions to the block and finally achieve that which you thought you couldnt.
My father used to say to "sarah,there is no such thing as cant.Its wont" I can see that he was right.Anything is possible.It just depends wether we believ it to be so and then ACT on that.It takes energy but is so rewarding.

Exams

I dont quite know how I did it.I was in a sea of fog and my head felt heavy and unclear.I was certain that I had done JUST enough to pass.It seems I have very little faith in my abilities.A familiar theme.
I managed 6 distinctions and a credit!
The relief is tangible and now I can really try and relax before I head back in a week and a half.
Its so rewarding!

Exhale and reconnect...........

Pheweeeeeeeee.....Its been a massive 6 weeks.I had my folks here for a couple of weeks and wonderful!But no study. Then finals! Head down and bum up and hold my breath for a lot longer than I think is humanly possible.
Had some good exams and some shockers too, my mind set had to change alot for these exams.I didnt have the time to do brilliantly.I had the time to pass.It felt uncomfortable and still does but as I keep hearing around the place Ps make degrees,so lets hope I managed the Ps.There was one exam where I am not sure that I even did that but lets wait and see.
So know here I am bereft of study and a whole lot of time on my hands for the next month.It will fly by ,and is such a joy not to have to wake in the morning with a work load that never ends.
Plan to get strong in the next month.Pull in the abs and lift up the bum that has become chair shaped!

Those 5 little things

This is a bit tricky because there are some things people know and some that dont.....I will try to dazzle you with some real dingers!

MEN: I can safely say that I dont trust men at all.Not in the slightest.Not married not single,not bi-sexual,BUT I seem to be able to trust gay men........the ones that I fully take on as my friends and develop friendships with anyways.

MASKS AND COLOURED CONTACT LENSES:Get away from me if you have either of these.I am extremely phobic of both.I like to be able to look into your eyes.....your real eyes! or see your facial expression.I dont like it when Halloween comes around and everyone wears masks.It freaks me out! Not because they are scary and hideous looking ,purely because I cant see who you really are.......

RABBITS AND GUINEA PIGS:Not a great fan.I was glad when my rabbit died.She was the devil incarnate and ever since I have really steered clear,unless of course they are small babies and ever so cute and that I can hand thenm back and not have to deal with thier stinking hutches.Never really got guinea pigs either...would happily run one over or stick it with a couple of acupuncture needles.Tell me......what is thier purpose on this planet?? To make annoying squeaky noises and piss me off??? Doing a good job!

SEX:The best moment of sex is when its all done and dusted and the pumping and grinding is over and there is a profound state of relaxation.Noises are clearer and I love to just lie and listen to evrything around me.Breath,birds in trees,passing cars,the sounds of far off voices,the sound of the ocean.........

BEFORE I DIE: I want to fly in a hot air balloon,visit South America,and the maldives,Have a child,Fall in love and get married,have my own business,own a house by the beach,own a saab convertible,visit the dalai llama,learn the art of Tantra, travel with my children at a young age.